I am giving up!
Years ago I had a recurring vision of my soul as a shattered window in an old pane; a form of myself that held the fragmented glass in place -BECAUSE – too much pressure caused the pieces to fall to the ground – and someone will just come along and sweep up the broken pieces in a dust pan and toss in the trash.
But that was a long time ago and I have since become a whole person.
Have I? I’m still trying to hold myself together for what? Fear of being forgotten, tossed in the trash, a constant wannabe? At least as a shattered window people can see through my vision into the world, though there may be fractures of communication.
The window pane. (The window pain). Holds together shattered, broken glass. Why? Because that is it’s purpose?
No. It’s purpose is to hold a window in place. It’s okay for the fragments to fall out.
Let the fragments fall. I’m giving up.
I’m not a shattered glass holder any longer.
I am like a pelican of the wilderness; I am like an owl of the desert. I lie awake, and I am like a sparrow alone on the house top.
He shall regard the prayer of the destitute, and shall not despise their prayer.
A pelican needs water and fish to survive, and thrives near oceans; An owl Is a predator and needs to hunt other animals, needs to nest in trees or rocks and would not survive in an open desert where it can be seen as food.
Sparrows are social birds and gather in colonies or even small groups.
Have you ever felt as if your needs were not met or that you were open season to your enemy, or have you felt you were alone way too long?
The idea here is the feeling of “way too long.”
One of the greatest traps of the enemy is to believe there is no way out and no answer is coming.
Most of my reading this morning was about our tears being food for us, and our tears speaking to us and taunting us “where is your God?”
The danger is not that we feel this way, but that we look to the world for help rather than trust God and his word. He will always answer, he will always provide, his mercy endures forever, and his answer to you will not be filled with shame; but with love and dignity. He will not despise your prayer.
Though He tarry He will surely come.
The steps of a man are established by the Lord, And He delights in his way.
I called the Lord “my Choreographer” after a vision of black footsteps on the dance floor. I was being taught how to dance by stepping on His feet as He held me and moved His own feet on those steps.
He was teaching me how to dance the dance of my journey with Him, and He delighted in my every step because He laid them out.
In the dance of your journey, your eyes are on His as your feet are also on His, and He delights in your every step because He laid them out.
Psalm 126 – The Passion Translation
Someone sent me a video and Chuck Pierce shouted out “there are nations within you!”
I was reminded that Jacob, the individual, had a name change to Israel, who became a nation.
I had a flash of a picture of every cell in our body as a nation.
And psalm 126 was on my planned reading this morning.
“It was like a dream come true when you freed us from our bondage and brought us back to Zion!
We laughed and laughed and overflowed with gladness.
We were left shouting for joy and singing your praise. All the nations saw it and joined in, saying, “the Lord has done great miracles for them!“ Yes, he did mighty miracles and we are overjoyed!
Now, Lord, do it again! Restore us to our former glory! May streams of your refreshing flow over us until our dry hearts are drenched again. “
May you rejoice at what the Lord has done so much that every fiber of your being joins in with you!
Give ear to my words, Lord
Give heed to my cry
My King and My God
To You I draw nigh
Hear my voice in the morning
For it speaks only to You
Consider my musings
While on the ground there is dew
You take no pleasure in wickedness
Evil flees from Your door
Boasting becomes silent
Deceitful men You abhor
Workers of Iniquity
You do not enjoy
Those who speak falsehood
You will destroy
But as for me I will come
Into Your house of mercy
As for me I will worship
In fear and in truth
Lead me in righteousness
Because of my foes
Make my ways straight
May my words be sooth
In their mouths lie unfaithfulness
Their throats are an open tomb
Littered with sin
Tongues drip with flattery
Judge them guilty! Oh God
May all of their counsel
Now be their own rod
As for we who rejoice;
Our trust is in You
Because You defend us
And make mercies new
You’ve given garments of praise
To the lovers of Your name
Oh Lord bless the righteous
Shield us from blame.
I was reminded this morning of my first time learning to waterski. It started out well, but the skis fell off after a bit and I kept holding onto the rope attached to the boat. It was pulling me across the water and I kept getting tossed and turned and pulled under. Then I heard a voice from the boat “Let go of the rope!” LOL Well of course!
While that is a funny memory, it’s amazing to me how many people don’t let go of the rope. This rope can toss them around and pull them under so fast, yet they hold on. For some, it can wrap around their necks and drown them.
The Lord’s voice has been getting louder over the past few years. “Let go of the rope! The ski’s that glide you across the water and keep you afloat are no longer there! You will drown!”
Sometimes, people are afraid to use some of the language in the psalms as part of their own prayer because we are in a new dispensation of grace and there is definately something to be said for that. We don’t want to call fire and destruction down on anyone – (Jesus gave a rebuke to James and John for that). However, the Lord is a God of justice as well as mercy. But the Lord’s mercy has been extended for a long time. Those who practice deception and destruction are sold out to iniquity. In order for Him to judge iniquity, because they won’t let go of the rope, they fall as well. His desire is none should perish. So let go of the rope!
Why do the nations rage and the people’s plot in vain? When they come together, what plan do they have to gain?
“Let us bring division; strip them of every strength to stand, then we’ll have the power to take dominion in the land.“
Yet He who sits upon the heavens laughs a hearty laugh; His voice shall cause displeasure, nations will feel his wrath.
But to those whose eyes are on Him, rejoice with Him and sing for you know that out of Zion, comes your Groom, your King!
The Lord brings the counsel of the nations to nothing; He makes the plans of the peoples of no effect. The Counsel of the Lord stands forever, the plans of his heart to all generations.
Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord, the people he has chosen as his own inheritance.
The battle in the earth today is not between Republicans or Democrats, it is not between black or white or red or yellow, it is not between men and women. The battle in the earth is against the Lord and His counsel, (laws and statutes), and the people who enforce them.
I hear the Lord saying “don’t be mislead. It’s not about a thousand small things. It’s about One Main Thing.”
Psalm 1:6 for the Lord knows the way of the righteous, but the way of the ungodly shall perish.
Micah 6:8,9 He has shown you, oh man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God? The Lord’s voice cries to the city – Wisdom shall see Your name: “Hear the rod! Who has appointed it?
“See to it that you are not shaken when I come to shake it all up! Be still, be at peace, walk humbly, love mercy and also justice.”