When Saul Crossed the Line

15:1 Then Samuel said to Saul, “The Lord sent me to anoint you as king over His people, over Israel; now therefore, listen to the words of the Lord.
vs 2 Thus says the Lord of hosts, ‘I will punish Amalek for what he did to Israel, how he set himself against him on the way while he was coming up from Egypt.

vs 3 Now go and strike Amalek and utterly destroy all that he has, and do not spare him; but put to death both man and woman, child and infant, ox and sheep, camel and donkey.’”

The era of Saul is over, but have you ever asked what, specifically, was the line Saul crossed?  In a nutshell, Saul was to destroy his enemy and take nothing for himself.  Did he do that?

vs 9 But Saul and the people spared Agag and the best of the sheep, the oxen, the fatlings, the lambs, and all that was good, and were not willing to destroy them utterly; but everything despised and worthless, that they utterly destroyed.

Saul disobeyed a direct word from the Lord and kept back portions for himself, then blamed it on the people, saying he obeyed every word of God (vs 21).


vs 22 Samuel said “Has the Lord as much delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
As in obeying the voice of the Lord?
Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice,
And to heed than the fat of rams
vs 23For rebellion is as the sin of divination,
And insubordination is as iniquity and idolatry.
Because you have rejected the word of the Lord,
He has also rejected you from being king.”

I wrote about this in December, the word given me for 2018.  Here is a portion of that word:

Rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft.  While I have given you authority to walk in and govern, the lawless will continue to illegitimately take the authority upon themselves to control and manipulate.  You will see the darkness of witchcraft come out of hiding and be broadcast through the airwaves, the television and radio and over the internet.  I say “increase” because it is already happening but it will soon threaten your ability to be free with what you speak.  You’ve seen a little of it, but it will be everywhere and in your face.  Pay attention to My Spirit and I will give you what to say in appointed times.”

I did not know at the time I wrote that word, all that I know now regarding what is currently going on in our government and the world.  Have you seen authority and power removed in the spirit from former leaders and the mainstream media?  Have you seen the reports blaming everyone BUT herself, himself, themselves over why they lost control, power, the election?

When the Lord no longer has HIS power backing a person (or persons), and they do not sincerely repent for the reason His power was removed but rather, they blame others and try to take control again, it becomes witchcraft.

Saul pushed himself to the line many times but he crossed it when he disobeyed the Lord and took for himself and others the spoils in the enemy’s camp.

Think Iran Deal.   Could that have been when the Lord said “Enough!”?   Who are the Amalekites today?

Israel National News: Netanyahu says Iran are Amalekites

Treason is only 1/10.

Focus begins at the 2:33 mark

Saul Died by His Own Sword

1 Samuel 31:5  And when his armor bearer saw that Saul was dead, he also fell on his sword, and died with him.

This is a part of yesterday’s message, which is a larger part of the word given me on December 31, 2017 for this year.   It is the end of the world as we know it and an era is coming to an end.  Everyone who supported the system of the globalists around the world have reached the peak in their career.

Saul represents an era.  It is an era of choosing what feels right according to the senses, or the flesh.  In the time of Judges, the Lord Adonai desired that men rightly govern themselves and when disputes arose between them, the appointed judges would settle the matters.  However,  two themes emerged; there was no king in Israel, and everyone did what was right in their own eyes.

The Lord raised up Samuel the prophet to then judge Israel (I Samuel 7).

Back in 2008 I had a word about Samuel the prophet.  Copied here:

The Commanded Blessing

for here the Lord commanded the blessing
life forevermore
psalm 133:3 
I read today about Billy Graham.  Possibly America’s most respected evangelist in our time.

from the Associated Press:

“Franklin Graham said in an interview that his father’s mind remains sharp even as his body continues to fail. But the preacher who has counseled every president beginning with Eisenhower is not in line to mentor Obama.


(Franklin) expressed concern about Obama’s views on abortion and gay marriage – an issue Franklin Graham raised in a meeting with the Illinois senator – saying that he and his father are conservatives who believe the Bible speaks clearly on those issues. “President-elect Obama heard our position,” Franklin Graham said. “And I told him that this was very difficult for us and hard for us. It’s a moral issue that we just can’t back down on.

and further on down in the article:
“He could catch a cold and his life could come to an end,” Franklin Graham said. “At his age, any little thing could be a serious event. We realize that.” His days at 90 are a stark contrast to Graham’s days as a globe-trotting evangelist – a ministry that put him behind the pulpit to speak with 215 million people in more than 185 countries and placed him in the confidence of some of the world’s most powerful people. ”


As I read this article about Billy Graham, I thought of Samuel.  

“Now Samuel judged Israel all the days of his life.  He used to go annually on circuit to Bethel and Gilgal and Mizpah, and he judged Israel in all these places.  Then his return was to Ramah, for his house was there, and there he judged Israel; and he built there an altar to the LORD.”            1 Samuel 7: 15-17

His spiritual authority over a nation, although not a king himself, was well respected, but as he became very old, the leaders looked at his sons who did not walk in the ways of the Lord, and felt it was time for a change.   
Israel Demands a King
1 Sam 8:1  And it came about when Samuel was old that he appointed his sons judges over Israel.  
2 Now the name of his firstborn was Joel, and the name of his second, Abijah; they were judging in Beersheba.  
3 His sons, however, did not walk in his ways, but turned aside after dishonest gain and took bribes and perverted justice.  
4 Then all the elders of Israel gathered together and came to Samuel at Ramah;  
5 and they said to him, “Behold, you have grown old, and your sons do not walk in your ways. Now appoint a king for us to judge us like all the nations.”  
6 But the thing was displeasing in the sight of Samuel when they said, “Give us a king to judge us ” And Samuel prayed to the LORD.  
7 The LORD said to Samuel, “Listen to the voice of the people in regard to all that they say to you, for they have not rejected you, but they have rejected Me from being king over them.  
8 “Like all the deeds which they have done since the day that I brought them up from Egypt even to this day–in that they have forsaken Me and served other gods–so they are doing to you also.  
9 “Now then, listen to their voice; however, you shall solemnly warn them and tell them of the procedure of the king who will reign over them.”
Warning concerning a King
10 So Samuel spoke all the words of the LORD to the people who had asked of him a king.  
11 He said, “This will be the procedure of the king who will reign over you: he will take your sons and place them for himself in his chariots and among his horsemen and they will run before his chariots.  
12 “He will appoint for himself commanders of thousands and of fifties, and some to do his plowing and to reap his harvest and to make his weapons of war and equipment for his chariots.  
13 “He will also take your daughters for perfumers and cooks and bakers.  
14 “He will take the best of your fields and your vineyards and your olive groves and give them to his servants.  
15 “He will take a tenth of your seed and of your vineyards and give to his officers and to his servants.  
16 “He will also take your male servants and your female servants and your best young men and your donkeys and use them for his work.  
17 “He will take a tenth of your flocks, and you yourselves will become his servants.  
18 “Then you will cry out in that day because of your king whom you have chosen for yourselves, but the LORD will not answer you in that day.”  
19 Nevertheless, the people refused to listen to the voice of Samuel, and they said, “No, but there shall be a king over us,  
20 that we also may be like all the nations, that our king may judge us and go out before us and fight our battles.”  
21Now after Samuel had heard all the words of the people, he repeated them in the LORD’S hearing.  
22The LORD said to Samuel, “Listen to their voice and appoint them a king.” So Samuel said to the men of Israel, “Go every man to his city.” 

The Choosing of Saul

1 Samuel 9:2 He had a son whose name was Saul, a choice and handsome man, and there was not a more handsome person than he among the sons of Israel; from his shoulders and up he was taller than any of the people.

 1 Sam 9: 15-16  Now a day before Saul’s coming, the LORD had revealed this to Samuel saying,  “About this time tomorrow I will send you a man from the land of Benjamin, and you shall anoint him to be prince over My people Israel; and he will deliver My people from the hand of the Philistines For I have regarded My people, because their cry has come to Me.”
Saul was a most handsome man, more so than all the sons of Israel.  He attracted others to him, much like a magnet might attract, or draw to the surface,  metal.
Or mettle.

There was a time I recall as a child, when my family would gather at the television set to watch the Billy Graham revivals.  He drew thousands of people and many took his words to heart.  But somewhere along the way, and I can’t say exactly when, our nation stopped taking his words to heart. As a society, we stopped governing ourselves and demanded change.   Like the Israelites, we wanted to do what was right in our own eyes.  We demanded someone who would reflect our choices to do what was right in our own eyes.
And that was what we as a nation received.  According to 1 Samuel 8:18 – “Then you will cry out in that day because of the king you have chosen for yourselves – but I will not hear you”

And there was spiritual darkness upon our land.  Dryness. Sleepiness. Discouragement.  Our choice WAS a judgment because we didn’t want to govern ourselves as a nation AND TAKE THE BLAME FOR IT.  We wanted legal rights to do the things that were right in our own eyes.

That was an era.  The era has ended.  People are rising up again, coming up out of their slumber.  We are rising up and crying out for righteousness and SEEING it come to pass as we are watching Saul (the era) die by its own sword – the sword used in battle to create new unrighteous laws, laws that served itself rather than the good of the people, and the people bought into it because of their own slumber and selfish desires – it is all being exposed.  Nobody has to do gymnastics to buy into the fact that the previous era was filled with self-serving lies and was a plot to control the world.  We SEE it.  And it is falling apart.

That is because unrighteousness cannot stand.  God will have a Bride that is pure and spotless.   And we are making ourselves ready.

It’s the End of the World As We Know It

This morning, I had the song by R.E.M. “It’s the End of the World as We Know it”  going through my mind and I had not heard that in recent memory.  Not coincidentally, R.E.M. stands for Rapid Eye Movement and is the beginning of the fourth stage of sleep; the state of deep sleep where most dreams take place.  I believe this fourth stage represents an actual awakening, because it is the place where the Lord speaks, and our own mind cannot control the dialogue (that isn’t to say we are puppets and God is puppetmaster, only that the Lord orchestrates the entire dialogue).  The beginning of that stage is a short transitional phase of entering spiritual rest, R.E.M.

On December 31, 2017 I was led (did not seek it, I was led) to 1 Samuel 31, the last chapter of 1 Samuel and the last day of 2017.  It was also the chapter we learn of Saul’s death.   I knew this meant “an end of an era”.

I went back to the word, just the first part of that word,  “The days of Saul are coming to a close.”  I sensed to stop right there.  (to see the entire word, click on December 2017 on the right of this page.)

1 Samuel 31:6
So Saul, his three sons, his armor bearer, and all his men died together that same day.

Not only did Saul die, but those who helped him make the system work did, too.  It is the end of an era.

The Lord is saying the actual “shift” (R.E.M.) we have been hearing about for a decade is now.  Most of those in my circle know this, but many more do not.  If you are still doing things the way you’ve always done them, you will be greatly disappointed at the very least, but in great danger at the worst.  It is time to get on board.

It’s the end of the world as we know it.  We are in Rapid Eye Movement.  Things are happening swiftly right now as we transition to a new way.

The days of Saul are rapidly coming to a close.

Back in 2008, I awoke to an audible voice.  “All Systems Down!”  It was clear.  I then saw the systems fall like Domino’s; one by one by one, and fast.  The Lord said to me “If you are still attached to the old systems, you will fall with them.”

The first system I saw fall was the healthcare system.  (In my spirit language, this does not mean this is the first system to fall but the one the Lord wanted ME to pay attention to first.)

In 2009, He extended His hand to me in a vision, and it was an invitation to go to school for alternative medicine.  I had a burning desire in my heart to be prepared when insurance is no longer the driving force for which doctor to choose and which medicine to be on, and when healthcare is no longer actually sick care management but rather a desire to walk healthy.

I took that word “All Systems Down” in 2008 seriously.  Ten years later, I am prepared but I keep myself learning more in order to be better prepared.  For what I see coming, I feel I am not prepared enough.

What systems are you attached to?  What do you depend on?  The end of an era, the end of the world as we know it, is upon us.  ”

Saul is dead, and those who surrounded and supported him died too.   It’s time for the people of God to get ready to fill positions in the new systems, according to the dreams God has given you that have gone unfulfilled.

Do You Love Me?

“Simon, son of Jonah, do you love Me?”

Jesus asked this question of Peter although He knew the answer.  I believe He may have chosen to call him Simon here because that was his birth name; he was asking the man, the human being, the one with a history and the one born to Jonah.  He was speaking to the humanity in Peter, putting him in touch with the heart that steps out of duty and responsibility for a moment, to ask “Do you love Me?”

Simon Peter then replied “Yes Lord, you know I do.”  In fact, when Jesus asked him a third time, Simon said “You know all things.”

Jesus knew the answer so why would He ask?   To touch the heart.

Yesterday I had this dialogue with the Lord in my car on the way to work, although it was slightly different. I was impressed that He wanted me to ask HIM if He loved me.  I knew He did but I also knew He wanted me to ask.

“Lord do You love me?”  I asked Him.

Then, I answered for Him.   “I know you do. Why am I asking this?”  He said “Ask again.”

Okay. “Lord do You love me?”

Something in my throat tightened a little.  I felt a little emotion, a little watery eye.

I said “Lord I know You love me”

“Ask again.”

“Lord do You love me?”

Then the floodgates opened.

I started asking more.

“Lord who am I?”
“For what purpose did You create me?”
“Remind me of the dreams you put in my heart”
“Remind me of the nickname You call me”
“Why do you call me that?”
“What is my calling?”
“How does what I do reflect back on who I am created to be?”

And the questions went on.  If I could give just one word that described the answers I received, it would be Wholeness.

Without my orchestration, there is a thread woven throughout my entire life called Wholeness.   Everything I dream of, everything I do is about wholeness.

Restoration of the physical body to wholeness.
Restoration of the soul from broken to whole.
Restoration of family to wholeness.
Restoration of marriages from broken to whole.
I’m a “WholeISTIC” Health Practitioner who believes WHOLE foods are best.
I teach that spirit, soul, body are inseparable – they are whole.
My former ministry was “the whole.e.ness clinic”.
My life verse is Psalm 133 – the commanded blessing is about unity or wholeness in the body of believers.

I looked up the word “Whole” in scripture.  The Hebrew is Rapha – which also means “to heal”.   Yahweh Rapha means “the Lord Who Heals”

His Signature is on my life.  Yahweh Rapha signed His name on my life.

“Do you love me?”   Jesus wanted me to ask Him this yesterday so I could step out of all my duties and responsibilities and be reminded of not just His affection for me, but His constant care for me, and that He had been fashioning my heart from a child, and in everything He did, brought me through.  This is more than affection.  And everything I have ever done is so much more than a bunch of random things.

I have His signature.  Though I saw all these things, I did not quite see His signature on everything I did until He wanted me to ask Him “Do you love me?”

Maybe you need to ask Him some questions you already know the answer to.   Or thought you did.

What hill do you want to die on?

I am opening your eyes to see how fallible you are, that you would know the length of your days are few and that you are a vapor in the earth. Therefore, set your heart on things that are eternal.  I will respond to a humble heart, so choose to enter a battle that will be remembered for generations to come, not one that comes from your swollen heart which brings you relief but setback to your friend.

Which hill do you want to die on?

I got this word this morning — while reading Psalm 39 “I will guard my ways that I would not sin with my tongue”  and right at that moment, while I read, I had a thought about something and brought it up to my husband. His response triggered something in me, and I responded back to him and it triggered him further.  Then I got quiet and held my tongue.  And the Lord said “Which hill do you want to die on?”

We are but a breath on this earth.  What do I want to be known for in this life?  What is my call?  Do my actions line up with all that God has put in my heart for years or do I want to be known for the things I say out of a swollen heart, filled with anxiety and anger and zeal?

I want my actions to count for glory.  I want my actions to make a real difference in this life and THAT is the hill I want to die on.


Psalm 39: 1
I said, “I will guard my ways

That I may not sin with my tongue;
I will guard my mouth as with a muzzle
While the wicked are in my presence.”
I was mute and silent,
I refrained even from good,
And my sorrow grew worse.
My heart was hot within me,
While I was musing the fire burned;
Then I spoke with my tongue:
Lord, make me to know my end
And what is the extent of my days;
Let me know how transient I am.
“Behold, You have made my days as handbreadths,
And my lifetime as nothing in Your sight;
Surely every man at his best is a mere breath. Selah.
“Surely every man walks about as a phantom;
Surely they make an uproar for nothing;
He amasses riches and does not know who will gather them.





Psalm 38 16 For I said, “Hear me, lest they rejoice over me,
Lest, when my foot slips, they exalt themselves against me.”

Vs 17 For I am ready to fall,
And my sorrow is continually before me.
Vs 18 For I will declare my iniquity;
I will be in anguish over my sin.

Psalm 68:1 Let God arise,
Let His enemies be scattered;
Let those also who hate Him flee before Him.
Vs 2 As smoke is driven away,
So drive them away;
As wax melts before the fire,
So let the wicked perish at the presence of God.
Vs 3 But let the righteous be glad;
Let them rejoice before God;
Yes, let them rejoice exceedingly.

Psalm 98: 1 Oh, sing to the Lord a new song!
For He has done marvelous things;
His right hand and His holy arm have gained Him the victory.
The Lord has made known His salvation;
His righteousness He has revealed in the sight of the nations.

This morning I woke up and like immediately started feeling a cloud of turbulence around me.  Things that need to be done, things that I forgot to do, and not feeling well.  To get my new pool up and running will take more time and effort and dollars than I originally thought.  My stomach feels queasy.  Today is election day and I need to get to the polls before work but oh no! I forgot to put my clothes in the dryer.

That was just the first half hour.

Last week we had an unexpected expense of $402.   A few days later we had an unexpected check of $405.  Yet we still saw the expense as a loss we needed to try to recover and the check as a blessing we could use for extra things.

As I sit here this morning, and just wait upon the Lord, I am impressed that He is saying to me that neither trials nor tribulations have the final word.  Their voice is not the “Amen!”  Though we are surrounded by hardships and difficulties which continuously hit us in the face,  they do not have the victory.

1). Realize they only have power to wreck your life if you give it to them.
2). Trials and Tribulations and Losses are tools God uses to shape us – sometimes He sends them, sometimes the enemy does, sometimes we open the door – they are still tools
3). They are not the last word, the “Amen!”
4).  Remind yourself of His promises and all that He has done
5).  Watch Him bring the solution
6). Rejoice

This is simple stuff. But we need a reminder every now and then.

Desire Abundance

Psalm 63:5
My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness;

Isaiah 55:2
Why do you spend money for what is not bread, and wages for what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good, and let your soul delight itself in abundance.

John 10:10
The thief does not come except to steal, kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.

A spirit of religion says moderation or even restriction is godly. But all through the Bible we see that abundance is what Jesus desires for us. Fatness!

But wait!  How does this align with Proverbs 30:8,9?
Give me neither poverty nor riches—
Feed me with the food allotted to me;
Lest I be full and deny You,
And say, “Who is the Lord?”
Or lest I be poor and steal,
And profane the name of my God.

Isn’t this asking for moderation?

Or what about when Paul says this?

Philippians 4:12
I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.

Parallel to the Natural
I am on a ketogenic diet.  High (good) fat, low carb, eating only 3x day, no snacks.   High calories.   One whole avocado is 360 calories.  I can eat one a day.  Not that I am limited to one a day.  I am satisfied with one per day.   One whole boiled egg is 60 calories.  I eat four a day.   I take 1 tbsp fish oil, 1 tbsp flax oil, 1 tbsp MCT oil, 1/2 tsp ghee, pat of butter, chunks of cheese, full fat milk in my coffee and 1/4 cup real olive oil in my salad.   High fat is satisfaction.  High fat satisfies the hormone leptin.   It is good fat and removes cravings.

If you don’t have your high fats first in the morning, you will crave carbs.  Carbs do not satisfy.  They taste good.  They fill your belly; but you always want more.

It is the same in the spirit realm.  When you desire the meat and milk (cream, butter etc) from the Lord in His word you are satisfied with whatever comes your way.  If you desire what is not good for you or what is not from the Lord, you will continue to crave what is not good because you are not satisfied.   When you desire abundance and ask the Lord for it, do so in order to give Him credit for it because any less can be obtained through any source.

Desire abundance from the Lord.  Ask for abundance so that you will be satisfied with whatever place you find yourself in.

What do you need today? Ask for abundance of it from Him. He alone satisfies and keeps you from constant craving.