How Do You See Yourself?

landGen 28:3-5 “May God Almighty bless you and make you fruitful and multiply you, that you may become a company of peoples. “May He also give you the blessing of Abraham, to you and to your descendants with you, that you may possess the land of your sojournings, which God gave to Abraham.”

When God calls us to a place, we aren’t there by chance.  We aren’t there because the economy is better.  We aren’t there because we were born there.  We are not even there because we took a wrong direction.  We are where we are because the Lord called us there.  Sometimes He called us to a place because we were not aware of His presence where we previously were.  Sometimes we are called to a place because He wants to prosper us in the new place.  Sometimes we really did botch it up completely and ended up in a bad marriage,  unsafe neighborhood or wrong job for our skills, but the Lord still called us to that place.  It may not have been His BEST for us, but He led us to a place where He could have our attention.

No matter where we find ourselves, He has called us to be at that place for His purposes.  He has not left us abandoned to our own devices and bad choices.  He is wanting our attention.  Once He has our full attention,  we will begin seeing progress.

Yesterday I wrote about Elijah being moved around by the Lord, told to go into a cave, and told to go out into the wilderness, both times He asked Elijah “What are you doing here?”   Why would He ask that?  He told Elijah to go and He went.  But God was looking for a different answer than what Elijah gave him.  Elijah’s response was that everyone else was slacking on the job and he was the only one doing it right.

He saw himself as a loner.  Consequently his mantle was transferred to another.  His authority was placed on Elisha.

If He calls you to a place, He will be with you in that place.   For what purpose? There is a future purpose and promise outlined in scripture above.

1 – That you would become a company of peoples.

Presently, you are one person.  Like Jacob was one person.  But Jacob’s name was changed to Israel and Israel became a nation.  See yourself as a nation.  When you do, your perspective will change because you will see your actions and how they affect your family, your community, your town and nation.

2 – That you and your descendants with you would have the blessing of Abraham upon you.

The blessing of Abraham is that you would walk in grace, no longer walking under the curse of the Law, but of moving in power and grace.  All the promises of God we inherit are by grace through faith and this promise is ours and all our descendants.  See yourself as a nation with descendants who will receive all these promises.

3) That you would possess the land He called you to.

The Lord calls us to possess lands.   I don’t own the street I live on.  I own one piece of it.  But is the street I live on in my possession?  Is the city?  The state? Whoever owns it in the natural is not the one who truly possesses it.  If I rented my home, I could possess it even if I don’t own it. I could possess the street if I pray for it and love it and the peoples on it.   See yourself as one who possesses the street you live on, or the community you live in or the job you have or position of authority you were given.

See yourself as a nation and walk as a possessor of  lands before you, not as a loner and the only one who “gets it.”

Watch what He does with that.


What Are You Doing Here?

1 Kings 19:9-13
Then he came there to a cave and lodged there; and behold, the word of the LORD came to him, and He said to him, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”
He said, “I have been very zealous for the LORD, the God of hosts; for the sons of Israel have forsaken Your covenant, torn down Your altars and killed Your prophets with the sword And I alone am left; and they seek my life, to take it away.”

So He said, “Go forth and stand on the mountain before the LORD ” And behold, the LORD was passing by! And a great and strong wind was rending the mountains and breaking in pieces the rocks before the LORD; but the LORD was not in the wind. And after the wind an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake.

After the earthquake a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire; and after the fire a sound of a gentle blowing.

When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood in the entrance of the cave And behold, a voice came to him and said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

The first time the Lord asked him “What are you doing here, Elijah?”  scripture doesn’t indicate that Elijah put the mantle over his head.

 It is not stated that he sought the Lord initially and then got a response.  It appears that the Lord initiated this contact because it says only that the word of the Lord came to him. The Lord wanted not so much to chide Elijah about his whereabouts, but rather wanted Elijah to have a good answer for the purpose of where he was.

The first time he heard the Lord ask him “What are you doing here?”  Elijah was in a cave, but it was possible the Angel of the Lord instructed him where to go, because he was content to be under the Juniper Tree. The second time he heard the Lord ask him what he was doing there, he was in a mountain, at the instruction of the Lord.

I believe that both times it was the Lord who sent Elijah but Elijah’s eyes were not focused upon this fact, nor were his ears in tune to what the Lord was saying.

The second time Elijah approached the Lord, he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out to meet the Lord, but heard once again “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

The second time, Elijah hid under his mantle (authority or anointing) to approach the Lord.  He still did not respond the way the Lord was wanting him to respond.  It was the Lord who sent him.  Yet Elijah was not in tune with Him.

The Lord knows where we are and why.  He leads us and guides us.  He directs our paths, even when we aren’t paying attention.  What He wants is our awareness.

“What are you doing here?  Yes I know I led you here but why?  Tell me Darlene.  What are you doing here?”

Is There Anyone Left in the House of Saul?

David and Mephibosheth

This is a repost of an earlier blog I’d written years ago.  I selected it today because I was led to.  Literally.
My own daily reading included 2 Samuel 4 this morning.  It called back to my remembrance of my own feet and how they are lame (at times), and I often wonder how will I be cared for and by whom.  It’s a thought I brush from my mind because it is out of my control, yet on days when I do think of it a little too long, it brings a hopelessness to my soul that takes me awhile to recover from.

After reading the verse in 2 Samuel, I wandered over to my blog site here and had a thought as I looked at my very first entry in 2012.  I opened it.   And I believe the Lord is speaking to me.  Perhaps to you as well.



Brother “D” (as those who know him affectionately call him) was unable to attend the conference in Maryland.

He had suffered a stroke and would not have the endurance to sit through the day long praise, worship, and fellowship that was planned, no matter how glorious it got.

And the weekend was certainly spirit-filled with ecstatic praise and worship, beautiful vibrant music, warm fellowship between many who previously had been total strangers, and deep corporate and personal encounters with the Lord.

But as I said, Brother D was not able to attend.

Prior to the conference, I was reading one of Pastor Alma’s newsletters to my husband, Richard, who was impressed by the Lord that he should learn one of her favorite hymns – “Trust and Obey” – and play it for her while we were in Maryland on Saturday evening, but because of the length of the conference time  and an extended dinner time, he wasn’t able to.   He hoped, also, to have an opportunity to meet Brother D, who stayed back in the hotel room.

You see, Brother D is Pastor Alma’s husband.

It was not until Sunday morning, as we were all preparing for our departure, that Richard was able to bring his guitar and harp to their hotel room.

There was Brother D on the bed.

I had met him a few years ago, briefly, when I attended a conference at their home in Washington DC, but Richard shook his hand for the first time.

Brother D looked at me and said, “Thank you for the beans.”  I responded to him that he might be mistaking me for someone else, because I hadn’t brought any beans.  Pastor Alma said, “He is remembering the gift of assorted beans in a jar you gave us for Christmas a few years ago.”


Brother D explained that his long-term memory was fine, it was his short-term memory that troubled him.

Richard sat on the bed across from him.   As he began to sing “Trust and Obey” Brother D broke into tears.

“Trust and Obey, for there’s no other way, to be happy in Jesus than to trust and obey”

This song reaches him each time he hears it.  He loves hymns.

Tears began to stream down my own cheeks.   There was something eternal in this very moment, more than I’d experienced all weekend.


This was the Key of David!


Cords of Unity + Chords of Harmony = The Key of David


I heard in my spirit “Is there anyone left of the house of Saul that I may show kindness to?”
(2 Sam 9:1) Later on, I heard this scripture again as we drove home.

Mephibosheth was lame in both feet.  His needs had to be cared for, but because Jonathan and Saul were dead, Mephibosheth would no longer have his needs tended to.  Because of the love David had for Jonathan, Mephibosheth’s father, David exalted him to the place of eating at the King’s Table for the rest of his life.  He also appointed all the servants in the House of Saul to tend to him and to the things he cared for.

For the sake of Jonathan.

David loved Jonathan as he loved his own soul.  (1 Sam 20:17, Matt 22:36-40)

I spoke this to Pastor Alma a few days later.  She said although her husband wasn’t able to attend the conference, Richard brought the conference to him, and ministered to him.  She also shared that, like Mephibosheth, Brother D was lame. Complications of diabetes have forced him to depend on a cane and a wheelchair.

I thought of our Father.   “Is there anyone left of the children of men, that I can show kindness to for the sake of My Son?”

And now, because of the blood of the Lamb, Jesus His Son, we are elevated to a place of sitting at the King’s Table forever.

No ministry, nor anointing, nor gift, nor joining in fellowship, nor supernatural manifestation, can ever take the place of what was done for us at the Cross, by His Blood.   We are lame, weak, have little power and strength, yet we get to sit in heavenly places for eternity because of what Christ did.


Like Mephibosheth.


Like Brother D.   As he was ministered to that Sunday morning, I knew he heard the gentle whisper of the Lord saying “Come up.  Sit at My table forever.”

Daily, as we seek him in our prayer time and in life’s interactions, we have opportunity to receive greater revelation of the Cross, of the Blood, of His impact in our lives.

In the upcoming days and weeks and months, the love we say we profess for Jesus (and others) is going to be tested by a hotter fire than it had been in the past.

If we say we love Him, will we also demonstrate that love to those He loves?


Are you well-oiled?

797px-Tripod-of-Life_Holy-Trinity.svgI get revelation to questions while I am at work in the health food store. Holy Spirit expounds spiritual things while using the natural things, most often the correlation of the human body and the Body of Christ.  As a Holistic Health Practitioner and manager of a health food store, I am always finding natural ways to help others align their bodies in such a way for healing to flow.

I had recently asked a fish oil representative about the mg necessary to fight inflammation for the heart and brain.

His response was that what most of us don’t understand about fish oil is that we have to saturate our cells in Omega 3’s. We can take the # of mg suggested but that is usually the safe suggestion for all people across the board. Many have medications that would interact with higher numbers, however, ideally, we are supposed to bathe our cells in higher numbers daily, so that our bodies are not struggling. One example of struggle would be higher levels of cortisol, fatigue, and inflammation.

You often see about 1200 mg of total Omega 3’s on a bottle of fish oil, but in reality, you can take over 3000 mg daily and let your heart and brain bathe in that oil.

The next day, I was in my car, telling the Lord that I desire to be at the place where I once was, just saturated with His presence, and where signs and wonders followed me, and revelation was around every corner.

He said, “I Am the Alpha and the Omega” and then I “heard” “Three-In-One”.

He then reminded me of the previous day’s conversation. When we are BATHED in His Presence, offering worship to our Lord, meditating/soaking in worship music that fills His heart (saturating our hearts), and immersed in His word (saturating our brains), we are building up a saturation level that fights off spiritual inflammation (friction between body parts), high cortisol levels (handling stress on our own strength) and fatigue (inability to press on).

Interesting that He chose to reveal this as I was driving.  It was His GPS gently saying to me “recalculating.”


What Did You Do With Your Talents?


I haven’t been blogging for a few months now because I recently took a full time job in addition to some other side things going on, mostly just getting my house in order and trying to get together with family.

I was asked why I wasn’t writing and my response was that I blog when there is time to do it.  I think that is a wrong perspective.

I need to make that time.

I just gave a talk yesterday in the health food store where I work.  The topic was “The Seven Pathways of Elimination.”    Liver, lungs, kidneys, lymph, blood, skin, and colon.  The reason these pathways of elimination must remain clear is so that our bodies are continually ridding ourselves of the toxins we take in every day.

We need to be mindful of how our bodies are detoxing.  Eating to help flush waste, deep-breathing to assist the exchange of gas in our lungs (out with co2, in with oxygen), etc.  In the same way, we need to be in remembrance of spiritual detox, or repentance.  You cannot have physical energy if you aren’t ridding the body of wastes properly, but you will become spiritually sluggish if you aren’t repenting of the little things; and little things turn to bigger things.

We know this, right?

What about expressing what God has given?   While expression is not a release of toxins, it is a release of what God has given,  and without expression, it becomes toxic over time because the word of God is meant to be expressed, not suppressed.

Remember the man with 1,000 talents?  He hid them in the ground!  He thought it was good because he kept what was given to him tucked away all nice and neat and safe.

Matthew 25: 20 “So he who had received five talents came and brought five other talents, saying, ‘Lord, you delivered to me five talents; look, I have gained five more talents besides them.’
vs 21
His lord said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.’
vs 22 – He also who had received two talents came and said, ‘Lord, you delivered to me two talents; look, I have gained two more talents besides them.’
vs 23 – His lord said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant; you have been faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.’
vs 24
“Then he who had received the one talent came and said, ‘Lord, I knew you to be a hard man, reaping where you have not sown, and gathering where you have not scattered seed.
vs 25 And I was afraid, and went and hid your talent in the ground. Look, there you have what is yours.’
vs 26 – “But his lord answered and said to him, ‘You wicked and lazy servant, you knew that I reap where I have not sown, and gather where I have not scattered seed.
vs 27 So you ought to have deposited my money with the bankers, and at my coming I would have received back my own with interest.
vs 28 So take the talent from him, and give it to him who has ten talents.
vs 29 ‘For to everyone who has, more will be given, and he will have abundance; but from him who does not have, even what he has will be taken away.
vs 30 -And cast the unprofitable servant into the outer darkness. There will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’

So I have been busy educating, working, spending time with family – ALL VERY GOOD THINGS – but I moved away from daily study, writing, meditating, reflecting.  WHY?

It all started with expression of what God has given.  God has given everyone a certain measure of talents.  Those who did something with them, had their talents increased.  I was looking for the likes and comments and interests of people as my gauge to whether my talent had increased and when I did not see interest in my blogging, I stopped and moved elsewhere – I stopped expressing what I heard the Lord give me.

It doesn’t matter who likes it.  It matters that it is profitable.  Not monetarily profitable.  The Kingdom’s currency is not money nor the approval of men.

It is having something MORE to express.  And once expressed, having even more.  God gives more revelation to those who turn the talent He gives into more.

Time to get to work!

Psalm 66: 16 Come and hear, all you who fear God,
And I will declare what He has done for my soul.

Come a Little Bit Closer; Hear What I have to Say.


Psalm 35 – An Intercessor’s Journey

Plead my cause Oh Lord
With those who strive against me
Fight with those Oh Lord
Fight with those who fight against me
Take hold of my weapons
Restrain me from my flesh
Stop those who pursue me
Be to them as a mesh
And say to my soul

“I AM Salvation”

Bring shame and dishonor
To those who seek my life
May they be brought to confusion
Their lives filled with strife
May they be as the chaff
That blows away in the wind
For they love their own darkness
Proud of their sin
And say to my soul

“I AM Salvation”

May their pathways be darkened
May an angel pursue them
They have hidden their nets
Bring to them what is due them
In Your hands I release them
Keep me still before You, then
And say to my soul

“I AM Salvation”

My soul will rejoice now
For You have my foes
All my bones now sing
And my countenance glows
Who is Like You Oh Lord
For You have delivered the poor
From the snare of the enemy holding them at Death’s door
And You say to their souls

“I AM Salvation”

Fierce witnesses rise
Asking what I don’t know
Rewarding evil for good
To the sorrow of my soul
Yet when they were sick
I bowed in compassion and prayed
“Proclaiming their freedom,
“The Price had been paid!”
And spoke over their souls

“He is Salvation”

They rejoiced in my trials
They mocked and accused me
Though I did not know it
They tore and abused me
They snarled in their anger
They tried to confuse me
How long will You look on?
How long will they bruise me?
But You spoke to my soul

“I AM Salvation”

This all You have seen
Speak again to me Lord
For You have delivered me
With a two-edged sword
Stir up Yourself, now
And bring with You, reward
Bind me now to Your heart with a three-fold cord
And say to my soul

“I AM Salvation”


Salvation: Hebrew ישועה (yĕshuw`ah).

I have Neil Young’s “Harvest Moon” playing in the background as I write this.  The first line of the lyrics are “Come a little bit closer, hear what I have to say”  and I stop.

Come a little bit closer.  Hear what I have to say.   Come closer. 

Every word in scripture draws us to “come a little bit closer, hear what I have to say”….  We can read with intellectual minds, we can read history, we can seek to understand meaning……  but no matter what I am doing, I hear “Come a little bit closer, hear what I have to say.”

Today, is May 5 and my reading includes Psalm 35.  At first read, we see this psalm is about David whining crying out to the Lord regarding his enemies.

“Get ’em God” ….

“They want to kill me!! Gahhh!! Turn them back! Turn them back!”
“Gather them together in a net like fish so they can’t chase me any longer!”
“Bring them confusion so they lose their focus and forget about me!”
“Blow them away like dandelion spores in the wind!”
“Scatter them so that their numbers are reduced and their strength is little!”

Come a little closer.  Hear what I have to say.

So I read again.   It’s not so much David wanting to inflict harm on his enemies as much as he is overwhelmed by the fierce attacks against him.  After all, he is only human and this can take its toll.   So I sympathize.

“Do you see what they have done to me?”

“They have brought me so much shame, I can’t face the public with honor anymore!”
“There is no reason whatsoever for these attacks against me!”
“They send people to tell lies about me in a court of law so that I will be found guilty!”
“I pray for them when they are sick…. they repay me with evil!”
“I humbled myself but in their pride they rose against me!”
“I mourned for them in their grief, but in my grief they mock me!”
” They abuse me all day long!”

Come a little bit closer. Hear what I have to say!

So again, I read.   Oh David is talking to the Lord and really, he is wondering where God is in all this!

“Lord how long will You look on?”
“I must have to tell You all that they do to me because You don’t seem to know”
“Don’t be silent Lord”
“Stir Yourself up!!”
“Awaken to my need to be vindicated!”

“Are you asleep?”

Come a little bit closer.  Hear what I have to say!”

So again, I read.

Sounds a lot like me at times.  Does it sound like you?  Be honest.   How many times do we tell God what the situation is as if He is unaware?  How many times do we feel like we are drowning in attack and we can barely breathe?   How many times are we tempted to pray those imprecatory prayers; prayers that invoke curses upon our enemies (which is a form of witchcraft by the way)?  How many times do we whine in self-pity.

Hands up!  It happens to us all at various times.

I think I understand now.  On one level it is about David complaining.  On another level we can sympathize or empathize as to his reasons for doing so.  On another level we see him blaming God.  He is angry and not afraid to tell the Lord as much. On yet another level, we see ourselves.

Come a little bit closer.  Hear what I have to say.

And again, I read.

This time,  I see this same scripture as intercession for another person.  I read this scripture as if our President is saying it.  It stirs me to pray for him because I see that what David, King of Israel, is going through is the same as what our President Trump is going through.   The psalm motivates me to pray for him, his family, his mission, his safety,  his health; physical, mental and spiritual health.   It’s really not about me.  It’s about praying for others!

Come a little bit closer.  Hear what I have to say.

And so again, I read.

Something catches my eye.  “Say to my soul, “I AM Salvation”.

David is telling the Lord “Please remind me who You are when I can no longer see clearly.”
“When I forget You, remind me that YOUR SPIRIT bring all things to remembrance!”
“When I am troubled, remind me that YOU are my Peace!”
” When I am far away from You, remind me that You will never leave me nor forsake me.  Draw me with Your lovingkindness.”
“When my enemies attack me, remind me that YOU said Let not your heart be troubled, for I have overcome the world.”
“When I cannot fight, remind me that YOU draw out the spear and YOU fight my battles.  YOU tell me to be still and see YOUR SALVATION!”
“Remind me of Your Word, that came forth from YOUR ESSENCE and brings vindication to my troubled soul.”

“Bind me now to Your heart of Salvation with a 3-fold cord, one that is nearly impossible to break.”

In all that I do, whether I read, pray and intercede, cry, laugh, or reflect, remind me YOU are Salvation.  Capital “S”.    And as long as I know You, as long as I am with You, I will not be afraid.

And this is the bottom line.  He is so in love with us, He calls us closer. He is Yeshua – The Name which means Salvation. He wants us to know not just what His word says, but to know He is THE SPIRIT and THE WORD.  It is His Name.   To be so intimate with Him that we are at peace with whatever is going on in front of us.

Let it sink in.

“Because I’m still in love with you
I want You to see me dance again
Because I’m still in love with you
Ohhhh come soon”   (verse from Neil Young’s Harvest Moon, playing in the background, with just a minor lyric change).