I woke up this morning and asked the Lord to help me see His love today all around me. I want to meditate on His goodness. Sometimes it is hard to see when the first thing I wake up to is terrible pain and stiffness in my feet. I want to focus only on Him and stir up all those wonderful chemicals in my brain with just thoughts of Him but it gets hard.
I’m willing to be willing. I mouthed “Lord it isn’t good for me to see all the things I’ve done wrong and to experience pain day in and day out. Come help me rise above this.”
As a health practitioner I know the supplements to take and the ointments to apply, but I want to see complete healing in my body. No supplement can bring me there, only God.
When I look back at my journey with Him, I have seen Him heal me symptom by symptom until we reached the root, yet this remains. I have no doubt He will finish the work He has started. Someday.
My psalm reading for today is Psalm 27. I grabbed my coffee and opened my laptop and there it is; my heart cry for today.
Psalm 27:4 One thing I have desired of the Lord,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord
All the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the Lord,
And to inquire in His temple.
vs 5 For in the time of trouble
He shall hide me in His pavilion;
In the secret place of His tabernacle
He shall hide me;
He shall set me high upon a rock.
vs 11 Teach me Your way, Lord,
And lead me on a level path
Because of my enemies.
Because of my enemies – Teach me your WAYS, O Lord! It’s not enough that I know of You. I want to be in Your Presence because it is good for me but I also want to know the WAYS YOU MOVE because You are destroying all my enemies around me and if I don’t know Your ways, I will not see Your STRENGTH!
vs 12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my enemies,
For false witnesses have risen against me,
And the violent witness.
vs 13: I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
14 Wait the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!
Unless I had believed.
How easy it is to lose heart. I know that in just a few moments of waiting upon Him, my heart is safe from being abandoned. It was never in danger of abandonment, but the reality comes when I believe that I would see it.
Unbelief is the strongest enemy of the Christian.
Without belief that we will see His GOODNESS UPON US in the land of the living (in our earth suits), we will believe what is tangible right in front of our eyes.
Lord, I believe, help my unbelief! In other words, I am willing to be willing. When it is hard to believe that we will be healed or delivered in THIS LIFE, I need His help to believe. Show my Your Ways, Oh Lord!
(Click image of photo for Hillsongs’ Show me Your Ways)