Oh There You are!


I watched a secular movie today

Dead Poets Society

Picked apart as humanistic in spirit, but

I don’t care what they call it;

I saw You there in it

“Poetry stirs up passion;

Sucking the marrow of the bone dry”

Was how one dead poet put it.

I know they left You out of the picture

But I didnt

I saw You there in it.


I saw a man today weeding his garden

Playing his music loudly and worshiping You, God

He’s not accepted in church, he said.

He left it feeling sucked dry to the marrow of his bone.

Picked apart due to his sin

But right in his garden, I saw You there in it

What are You saying that I have not heard

Wherever I look, Look!

There You are in Your Word

If I look past what I see;

For Your word lives in me, and

As Living Waters rise they must flood past my eyes

So that all that I see is through the eyes

Of the Perfect One

Who also loves me

Every thing in life,

Everything and everyone in life

Must point to You.

Every place I go

Everywhere and everyplace I go

Must point to You

This is now my goal

This is now my heart and my soul

That I point to You

For You have brought me high

You have brought me low and then again, high

That I would point to You

You have made me as a sign,

A sign and a wonder

A miracle of grace, and a product of thunder

You have made me to shine as though my own life

Was well oiled;

Never having been picked apart and sucked dry

Nor tarnished and soiled

All of this I know yet I’m still learning

I’ve got so far to go yet I’m discerning

Isn’t this Your heart

Isn’t this where You want us all to be?

Looking for Your heart

Seeing with Your eyes

Reaching for Your love

Extending with Your hand

And seeing You at the Center

Of everything we do

Everyplace we go

Everyone we meet

And all we’ll ever know, is

There You are.

This was a spontaneous poem I had written after watching Dead Poet’s Society, a movie about a group of young, elite, college kids from 1959 who are inspired greatly by their English teacher, through the study of poetry.  They formed a Dead Poet’s Society, where they could learn more about the famous poet’s of old.

As I watched, I saw the Lord’s signature woven all the way through.  I didn’t try to see Him, I just did.

Later that day, my neighbor at the time, a gay man, being out in his garden, was singing to the Lord.   I watched him, and I saw the Lord right there with him.  My neighbor called out to me when he looked up, and we talked awhile.  There, he shared with me his struggles with church because he is gay but he felt close to God.  (I am NOT saying God condones his sin, but I learned something that day – that God had not picked him apart and sucked his marrow dry BECAUSE of his sin.  He loved my neighbor and was pleased to dwell with him IN THAT MOMENT).

This morning, June 17, I was praying.  I asked the Lord to stir up my spirit to sense His presence all around me again; like He did years ago.  What got in the way?

I turned to my reading for this morning – Psalm 77.   “Call to remembrance the days of old. ”

I looked at old poems and read Dead Poet’s Society, the spontaneous poem above.

He doesn’t pick me apart and suck all the life out of my bones.
Behavior needs to be repented of, but not struggled with.  We only need to acknowledge our emptiness and then seek His face.  If we struggle with our sin and see our sin always before us, we will feel as if we are picked apart and sucked dry but rivers of living waters fill our bellies and flood our being when our eyes are upon Him.  The eyes being upon Him is what floods our being with His presence and sanctification, and overcoming.

Nor Take Up Their Names on My Lips?

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A Michtam of David.
16 Preserve me, O God, for in You I put my trust.
2 O my soul, you have said to the Lord,
“You are my Lord,
My goodness is nothing apart from You.”
3 As for the saints who are on the earth,
“They are the excellent ones, in whom is all my delight.”

4 Their sorrows shall be multiplied who hasten after another god;Their drink offerings of blood I will not offer,Nor take up their names on my lips.

5 O Lord, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
You maintain my lot.
6 The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
Yes, I have a good inheritance.
7I will bless the Lord who has given me counsel;
My heart also instructs me in the night seasons.
8 I have set the Lord always before me;
Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.
9 Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices;
My flesh also will rest in hope.
10 For You will not leave my soul in Sheol,
Nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption.
11 You will show me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy;
At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

Do Not Fret

Do not fret - it only causes harm. -Psalm 37:8 (NKJV ...Psalm 37:1 Do not fret because of evildoers,
Be not envious toward wrongdoers.
vs 2 For they will wither quickly like the grass
And fade like the green herb.

I opened the scriptures to my morning reading and the word “fret” gave me pause.   “Fret” is written 3x in Psalm 37, and the meaning of it is the same as what is written in Proverbs 24:19, as per Strong’s Concordance.

But, the word actually appears in the King James Version three more times, yet has different meanings.   It does not mean, to worry, as it means in the Psalms and Proverbs.   In fact, in Leviticus 13:55, the word “pechetheth” means “a hole made by decay”.   In Isaiah 8:21, the word “qatsaph” means “to break forth in anger” and in 1 Samuel 1:6, the word “raam” translates into “making the sound of thunder” or “to rage”.

At no point, does the word “fret” mean “to worry or fear”.    In all three Hebrew words, it means, don’t be angry with rage, whether towards others or yourself.

Since I was reading the psalms, I thought I would look at the meaning of “charah” – “To burn with anger, to glow or grow warm; figuratively (usually) to blaze up, of anger, zeal, jealousy:—be angry, burn, be displeased, × earnestly, fret self, grieve, be (wax) hot, be incensed”  It has the feel of jealousy with revenge.

The word “fret” may be used only 8 times, but its Hebrew word appears over 90 times.  It is used when someone is burning hot with anger.

That’s quite a bit different from our common, current use of the word, which sounds more like “Now don’t you fret your pretty little self.”

The act of fretting is beyond worrying.  Worrying seems to be concerned more about being cared for, whether worrying about someone else or about oneself, but worry also bares holes.

Worrying is the fear of not being cared for, while fretting is anger kindled against someone else is being cared for rather than ourselves.  At least in the Psalms and other places, such as when Cain’s anger was kindled against Abel after God accepted Abel’s offering but not his.

But let’s call it all what it really is – in current plain English – it is anger towards God that we aren’t getting what we think we should get.   Whether we don’t see the plan of God for our lives, whether we see the plan of God in other’s lives but not ours, or whether we don’t even consider it the plan of God, we just don’t believe we are getting our needs met.   This burns a hole within us and can destroy us.

As a Natural Health Practitioner, I perk up when I see what unresolved anger and jealousy and stress can take on the body.  It burns holes.  (Leaky gut is literally the gut like cheesecloth, rather than a coffee filter).

But wait!  If we even know what Leaky gut is at all, we read it comes from eating processed foods, sugars, and comfort eating – but I will tell you that something takes place before that.

Acidity.   Yes, certain foods cause acidity.  But, anger directly affects the liver.  According to Livestrong, anger is an emotion that is associated with resentment, frustration, irritability and rage. …..This anger can affect many biological processes that sap energy and cause headaches, dizziness and high blood pressure.


Before disease, there is inflammation.
Before inflammation, there is acidity.
Before acidity, there is anger.
Before anger, there is stress.
Before stress, there is “taking thought” about tomorrow, what we shall eat, what we shall wear.
Believe and Trust in the Lord, for all your needs. Know that He cares for you and will provide for you.  Be angry and sin not.  Do not let the sun go down on your anger.

Be healthy.


to be continued……




How Do You See Yourself?

landGen 28:3-5 “May God Almighty bless you and make you fruitful and multiply you, that you may become a company of peoples. “May He also give you the blessing of Abraham, to you and to your descendants with you, that you may possess the land of your sojournings, which God gave to Abraham.”

When God calls us to a place, we aren’t there by chance.  We aren’t there because the economy is better.  We aren’t there because we were born there.  We are not even there because we took a wrong direction.  We are where we are because the Lord called us there.  Sometimes He called us to a place because we were not aware of His presence where we previously were.  Sometimes we are called to a place because He wants to prosper us in the new place.  Sometimes we really did botch it up completely and ended up in a bad marriage,  unsafe neighborhood or wrong job for our skills, but the Lord still called us to that place.  It may not have been His BEST for us, but He led us to a place where He could have our attention.

No matter where we find ourselves, He has called us to be at that place for His purposes.  He has not left us abandoned to our own devices and bad choices.  He is wanting our attention.  Once He has our full attention,  we will begin seeing progress.

Yesterday I wrote about Elijah being moved around by the Lord, told to go into a cave, and told to go out into the wilderness, both times He asked Elijah “What are you doing here?”   Why would He ask that?  He told Elijah to go and He went.  But God was looking for a different answer than what Elijah gave him.  Elijah’s response was that everyone else was slacking on the job and he was the only one doing it right.

He saw himself as a loner.  Consequently his mantle was transferred to another.  His authority was placed on Elisha.

If He calls you to a place, He will be with you in that place.   For what purpose? There is a future purpose and promise outlined in scripture above.

1 – That you would become a company of peoples.

Presently, you are one person.  Like Jacob was one person.  But Jacob’s name was changed to Israel and Israel became a nation.  See yourself as a nation.  When you do, your perspective will change because you will see your actions and how they affect your family, your community, your town and nation.

2 – That you and your descendants with you would have the blessing of Abraham upon you.

The blessing of Abraham is that you would walk in grace, no longer walking under the curse of the Law, but of moving in power and grace.  All the promises of God we inherit are by grace through faith and this promise is ours and all our descendants.  See yourself as a nation with descendants who will receive all these promises.

3) That you would possess the land He called you to.

The Lord calls us to possess lands.   I don’t own the street I live on.  I own one piece of it.  But is the street I live on in my possession?  Is the city?  The state? Whoever owns it in the natural is not the one who truly possesses it.  If I rented my home, I could possess it even if I don’t own it. I could possess the street if I pray for it and love it and the peoples on it.   See yourself as one who possesses the street you live on, or the community you live in or the job you have or position of authority you were given.

See yourself as a nation and walk as a possessor of  lands before you, not as a loner and the only one who “gets it.”

Watch what He does with that.


What Are You Doing Here?

1 Kings 19:9-13
Then he came there to a cave and lodged there; and behold, the word of the LORD came to him, and He said to him, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”
He said, “I have been very zealous for the LORD, the God of hosts; for the sons of Israel have forsaken Your covenant, torn down Your altars and killed Your prophets with the sword And I alone am left; and they seek my life, to take it away.”

So He said, “Go forth and stand on the mountain before the LORD ” And behold, the LORD was passing by! And a great and strong wind was rending the mountains and breaking in pieces the rocks before the LORD; but the LORD was not in the wind. And after the wind an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake.

After the earthquake a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire; and after the fire a sound of a gentle blowing.

When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood in the entrance of the cave And behold, a voice came to him and said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

The first time the Lord asked him “What are you doing here, Elijah?”  scripture doesn’t indicate that Elijah put the mantle over his head.

 It is not stated that he sought the Lord initially and then got a response.  It appears that the Lord initiated this contact because it says only that the word of the Lord came to him. The Lord wanted not so much to chide Elijah about his whereabouts, but rather wanted Elijah to have a good answer for the purpose of where he was.

The first time he heard the Lord ask him “What are you doing here?”  Elijah was in a cave, but it was possible the Angel of the Lord instructed him where to go, because he was content to be under the Juniper Tree. The second time he heard the Lord ask him what he was doing there, he was in a mountain, at the instruction of the Lord.

I believe that both times it was the Lord who sent Elijah but Elijah’s eyes were not focused upon this fact, nor were his ears in tune to what the Lord was saying.

The second time Elijah approached the Lord, he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out to meet the Lord, but heard once again “What are you doing here, Elijah?”

The second time, Elijah hid under his mantle (authority or anointing) to approach the Lord.  He still did not respond the way the Lord was wanting him to respond.  It was the Lord who sent him.  Yet Elijah was not in tune with Him.

The Lord knows where we are and why.  He leads us and guides us.  He directs our paths, even when we aren’t paying attention.  What He wants is our awareness.

“What are you doing here?  Yes I know I led you here but why?  Tell me Darlene.  What are you doing here?”

Is There Anyone Left in the House of Saul?

David and Mephibosheth

This is a repost of an earlier blog I’d written years ago.  I selected it today because I was led to.  Literally.
My own daily reading included 2 Samuel 4 this morning.  It called back to my remembrance of my own feet and how they are lame (at times), and I often wonder how will I be cared for and by whom.  It’s a thought I brush from my mind because it is out of my control, yet on days when I do think of it a little too long, it brings a hopelessness to my soul that takes me awhile to recover from.

After reading the verse in 2 Samuel, I wandered over to my blog site here and had a thought as I looked at my very first entry in 2012.  I opened it.   And I believe the Lord is speaking to me.  Perhaps to you as well.



Brother “D” (as those who know him affectionately call him) was unable to attend the conference in Maryland.

He had suffered a stroke and would not have the endurance to sit through the day long praise, worship, and fellowship that was planned, no matter how glorious it got.

And the weekend was certainly spirit-filled with ecstatic praise and worship, beautiful vibrant music, warm fellowship between many who previously had been total strangers, and deep corporate and personal encounters with the Lord.

But as I said, Brother D was not able to attend.

Prior to the conference, I was reading one of Pastor Alma’s newsletters to my husband, Richard, who was impressed by the Lord that he should learn one of her favorite hymns – “Trust and Obey” – and play it for her while we were in Maryland on Saturday evening, but because of the length of the conference time  and an extended dinner time, he wasn’t able to.   He hoped, also, to have an opportunity to meet Brother D, who stayed back in the hotel room.

You see, Brother D is Pastor Alma’s husband.

It was not until Sunday morning, as we were all preparing for our departure, that Richard was able to bring his guitar and harp to their hotel room.

There was Brother D on the bed.

I had met him a few years ago, briefly, when I attended a conference at their home in Washington DC, but Richard shook his hand for the first time.

Brother D looked at me and said, “Thank you for the beans.”  I responded to him that he might be mistaking me for someone else, because I hadn’t brought any beans.  Pastor Alma said, “He is remembering the gift of assorted beans in a jar you gave us for Christmas a few years ago.”


Brother D explained that his long-term memory was fine, it was his short-term memory that troubled him.

Richard sat on the bed across from him.   As he began to sing “Trust and Obey” Brother D broke into tears.

“Trust and Obey, for there’s no other way, to be happy in Jesus than to trust and obey”

This song reaches him each time he hears it.  He loves hymns.

Tears began to stream down my own cheeks.   There was something eternal in this very moment, more than I’d experienced all weekend.


This was the Key of David!


Cords of Unity + Chords of Harmony = The Key of David


I heard in my spirit “Is there anyone left of the house of Saul that I may show kindness to?”
(2 Sam 9:1) Later on, I heard this scripture again as we drove home.

Mephibosheth was lame in both feet.  His needs had to be cared for, but because Jonathan and Saul were dead, Mephibosheth would no longer have his needs tended to.  Because of the love David had for Jonathan, Mephibosheth’s father, David exalted him to the place of eating at the King’s Table for the rest of his life.  He also appointed all the servants in the House of Saul to tend to him and to the things he cared for.

For the sake of Jonathan.

David loved Jonathan as he loved his own soul.  (1 Sam 20:17, Matt 22:36-40)

I spoke this to Pastor Alma a few days later.  She said although her husband wasn’t able to attend the conference, Richard brought the conference to him, and ministered to him.  She also shared that, like Mephibosheth, Brother D was lame. Complications of diabetes have forced him to depend on a cane and a wheelchair.

I thought of our Father.   “Is there anyone left of the children of men, that I can show kindness to for the sake of My Son?”

And now, because of the blood of the Lamb, Jesus His Son, we are elevated to a place of sitting at the King’s Table forever.

No ministry, nor anointing, nor gift, nor joining in fellowship, nor supernatural manifestation, can ever take the place of what was done for us at the Cross, by His Blood.   We are lame, weak, have little power and strength, yet we get to sit in heavenly places for eternity because of what Christ did.


Like Mephibosheth.


Like Brother D.   As he was ministered to that Sunday morning, I knew he heard the gentle whisper of the Lord saying “Come up.  Sit at My table forever.”

Daily, as we seek him in our prayer time and in life’s interactions, we have opportunity to receive greater revelation of the Cross, of the Blood, of His impact in our lives.

In the upcoming days and weeks and months, the love we say we profess for Jesus (and others) is going to be tested by a hotter fire than it had been in the past.

If we say we love Him, will we also demonstrate that love to those He loves?


Are you well-oiled?

797px-Tripod-of-Life_Holy-Trinity.svgI get revelation to questions while I am at work in the health food store. Holy Spirit expounds spiritual things while using the natural things, most often the correlation of the human body and the Body of Christ.  As a Holistic Health Practitioner and manager of a health food store, I am always finding natural ways to help others align their bodies in such a way for healing to flow.

I had recently asked a fish oil representative about the mg necessary to fight inflammation for the heart and brain.

His response was that what most of us don’t understand about fish oil is that we have to saturate our cells in Omega 3’s. We can take the # of mg suggested but that is usually the safe suggestion for all people across the board. Many have medications that would interact with higher numbers, however, ideally, we are supposed to bathe our cells in higher numbers daily, so that our bodies are not struggling. One example of struggle would be higher levels of cortisol, fatigue, and inflammation.

You often see about 1200 mg of total Omega 3’s on a bottle of fish oil, but in reality, you can take over 3000 mg daily and let your heart and brain bathe in that oil.

The next day, I was in my car, telling the Lord that I desire to be at the place where I once was, just saturated with His presence, and where signs and wonders followed me, and revelation was around every corner.

He said, “I Am the Alpha and the Omega” and then I “heard” “Three-In-One”.

He then reminded me of the previous day’s conversation. When we are BATHED in His Presence, offering worship to our Lord, meditating/soaking in worship music that fills His heart (saturating our hearts), and immersed in His word (saturating our brains), we are building up a saturation level that fights off spiritual inflammation (friction between body parts), high cortisol levels (handling stress on our own strength) and fatigue (inability to press on).

Interesting that He chose to reveal this as I was driving.  It was His GPS gently saying to me “recalculating.”