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John 12: 27-29 Now my soul is troubled, and what shall I say? ‘Father, save me from this hour’? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name!” Then a voice came from heaven, “I have glorified it, and will glorify it again.” The crowd that was there and heard it said it had thundered; others said an angel had spoken to him.

The Thunder

2020 is hindsight but if you want to understand the truth about the phrase, you need to revisit the year and see it for what it was. Going into 2020, the average person had no idea that we would have a pandemic in which an entire country was locked down.

These events happened in 2020, according to the NY Post and Fox:

Australia faced one of its most devastating wildfires as the blazes continued from December 2019 into the new year and burned a record 47 million acres, displaced thousands of people and killed at least 34 people, destroyed about 3300 homes, and killed or displaced over 3 billion animals, which include In the interim report, 143 million mammals, 2.46 billion reptiles, 180 million birds, and 51 million frogs. (Click link to read article from Fox News).

Prince Harry and Meghan Markle quit the Royal Family.

The World Health Organization announced Jan. 9 that the coronavirus had emerged in Wuhan, China. In a matter of months, the virus has spread across the globe to more than 20 million people, resulting in at least 751,000 deaths.

Kobe Bryant and his daughter Gianna died in a bizare helicopter crash.

President Trump faced an impeachment trial in January on charges that he asked Ukraine to investigate former Vice President Joe Biden and his son Hunter. He was acquitted by the Senate on Feb. 5.

Harvey Weinstein was convicted of sexual harassment and rape, which was confirmed by dozens of accusers.

The coronavirus pandemic triggered a global recession as numerous countries went into lockdown. The Dow Jones industrial average suffered its worst single day point drop ever on March 9.

That was just the list in the NY Post.

Adding to the strangeness of the year were the distinctions made between what was considered “essential” and “non-essential” in order to remain open for business or forced closed.

Essential – Abortion clinics (where life is taken away)
Non-essential – Churches (where life could be found)
Essential – Liquor stores (because alcohol detox is deadly and so is the tax loss from alcohol purchase)
Non-essential – hair salons (because preparation for recreation and business is vital only to “public servants” who are essential, legends in their own minds. Oh, and because they are on television).

Essential businesses are ones that the public rely on in their day-to-day life. This includes banks, hospitals, supermarkets, pharmacies, gas stations, post offices, and the like. They carry supplies necessary for survival, both in the long and short-term. In contrast, non-essential businesses are those that people frequent for pleasure, like gyms, bars, restaurants, movie theaters, museums, and concert halls, among others.

What about the hypocrisy?

The average person couldn’t dine out unless they had a mask but that didn’t apply to elites. Coronavirus was selective. (It was difficult to find a photo for this article today, although I was able to months ago.)

And then there was BLM and A N T I F A. One had a Marxist leader and the other had a Lenin-style agenda. Did you notice how they were released during the election year and ceased after elections were over? (Or at least the MSM felt it was no longer necessary to cover their agenda because their purpose was fulfilled).

I received an email from a school I attended, stating if I want to be part of the school, I need to join the conversation; and if I joined the conversation, I needed to embrace BLM. It wasn’t enough to say ALL LIVES MATTER because in doing so, I missed the point. Though, anyone who said that really missed the point. B L M only emerges during an election year, has nothing in which they really stand for (because if black lives really mattered, they wouldn’t have burned down their businesses in large cities – check out the southside of Chicago).

What about Defund the Police? Now there was a movement no sane person wanted to be on board with, which by the way has its origins in BLM, but Defend the Police began as a countermove, which also has its origins in BLM except one is Black the other is Blue.

New York’s governor moved those who were afflicted with the virus into nursing homes where there was the greatest threat to our elderly, and yet schools were shut down so that children, who were not in the high-risk category, could not socialize (or maybe it was more to keep the parents home from work)?
Was it to protect the teachers? But, if the adults who knew to keep masks in place really worked……

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Suicides were on the rise. God says it is not good that man be alone. (Genesis 2:18) Lock downs forced the nation to practice social distancing, staying away from family and friends, avoid our grandparents in the nursing homes (because only actual covid patients could visit them) and abstain from intimate relationships (unless it was casual, that was different). In fact, weakened social ties have the same negative effects on health as alcoholism or smoking 15 cigarettes day. So much for liquor stores being deemed essential because detox of it is deadly.
Genes that turn on inflammation are unusually active in lonely people. Their immune systems appear to be working overtime, as if preparing their bodies for invaders that do not exist.

Masks were the main topic of conversation; whether it was right to wear one or not, and if so, which kind worked best but if not, it because none worked at all.
Or if it was fashionable.

There was a shortage of toilet paper and wheat, dairy and beef. Of course. Because it all tied to a virus!

The President was re-elected on November 3, but the vote was stolen by the left; yet if I write that, I am reminded by FB that it was not stolen and I am censored or blocked by Twitter and Youtube. (I have fondly referred to them collectively as YouTwitFace).

Who would EVER dream that they would see the day the President of the United States is talked down to in Press Conferences and called out on Twitter or even censored?

And then there were signs in the heavens. Just a week ago, most of us saw what many were calling “The Christmas Star”; where Jupiter and Saturn came so close to each other in orbit, much like when the Magi were led to the child of Christ.

I could go on, but you all were there. You saw it. You were appalled by it. But what, exactly, is “it”? And what, exactly, did you see?

It is clear that the Global Reset, or what many have been referring to for decades now as “the One-world government” is standing at the precipice. (Global Reset isn’t conspiracy theory, but talking about a One-World Government is thought to be just that).

It was a horrible year.

But 2020 is Hindsight. It is over. So do we breathe a sigh of relief?

It is true that what is about to take place on January 6 when votes are counted and then on January 20 when a president will be inaugurated will determine that, for the most part, but what really took place is more clearly seen in hindsight.

Signs

President Trump signed an Executive Order on Sept 12, 2018 on Imposing Certain Sanctions in the Event of Foreign Interference in a United States Election. (Click Link to read)

On Dec 17, 2017 President Trump signed an Executive Order Blocking the Property of Persons Involved in Human Rights Abuse and Corruption (Click Link to Read)

Here is a list of all his accomplishments since being elected. (Click link to read)

The Following was compiled by Sandy Poole:

“At the moment, POTUS is sitting on a stack of TRUMP cards that he’s just waiting to unleash…
A royal flush!
He has court cases that will go to the Supreme Court and thanks to the Texas case, he’s now aware how to file them properly…Under article 3 not 2…so the SCOTUS will be forced to listen…..He now has the DNI report. Barr stepped down and can now be a witness…..he did his job. Durham is special counsel and can prosecute, in any state….He’s letting civil, criminal and federal courts fail to handle the situation properly…..So he can use military tribunals. He has ALL the data from the NSA…The Kraken supercomputer…The Alice supercomputer and likely many more computers, unknown to us….He has the dueling electors from 7 state legislatures. He has VP Pence, as the final arbiter of which ballots to accept…..He has the Insurrection Act…The NDAA…The national emergency, the 14th amendment…The 2018 executive order…The 2017 very first Ehe Patriot Act, the FISA warrants, the Declassification of everything, people swearing affidavits by the 1000s.He has all the statistical data being analyzed….Along with the videos, emails, phone calls and bank transfer statements…..Showing the coordination of the coup d’etat.He has RICO and he has the crimes against humanity videos. Wikileaks just dropped extensive information and Assange will be pardoned. Assange can then openly discuss the murder of Seth Rich….Now that the governors and secretary of states certified and Biden accepted….They each committed and knowingly agreed to acts of Treason….Solar Winds was literally just raided and Dominion is closing down, as well. He has the CIA servers, used to change dominion machine votes from Trump to Biden…And he will soon have access to the actual machines, themselves….He baited the Deep State into staying in DC, so they can be arrested. Biden hasn’t accepted any transition money and Harris has still not given up her seat on the senate….The military has infiltrated Antifa and BLM. He has all their financial records. He knows which politicians took Chinese and Soros money….Both Republican and Demorat….He positioned Christopher Miller as secretary of defense and Ezra-Cohen Watnick as assistant secretary of defense. He literally just wrote an executive order, regarding the military line of succession. He is defunding the CIA. He just replaced Kissinger & Allbright on the National Security Advisory Board …with men loyal to him.The military has been flying planes, far more than usual, all over the country. The Navy just parked mega fleets on both coasts. The 82nd Airborne is preparing for an operation …Which is the same group that General Flynn & AG Donoghue were enlisted.Pieces are finally falling into place. POTUS has it all!He is just laying out the pieces and building the narrative. He knows he won and they commited TREASON! He set a trap and they walked right in, without hesitation.He gave the Deep State the chance to come clean and try to fix things. They chose TREASON! They will all hang, as the result.PATRIOTS IN CONTROL! NOTHING can stop what’s coming…NOTHING.

The year 2020 revealed why all the signing was necessary.

The Voice of God

2020 Won if you heard the Voice of God in the noise of the thunder.

Psalm 29: 3 The voice of the Lord is over the waters;
    the God of glory thunders,
    the Lord thunders over the mighty waters.
⁴ The voice of the Lord is powerful;
    the voice of the Lord is majestic.
⁵ The voice of the Lord breaks the cedars;
    the Lord breaks in pieces the cedars of Lebanon.
⁶ He makes Lebanon leap like a calf,
    Sirion like a young wild ox.

⁷ The voice of the Lord strikes
    with flashes of lightning.
⁸ The voice of the Lord shakes the desert;
    the Lord shakes the Desert of Kadesh.
⁹ The voice of the Lord twists the oaks
    and strips the forests bare.
And in his temple all cry, “Glory!”
¹⁰ The Lord sits enthroned over the flood;
    the Lord is enthroned as King forever.
¹¹ The Lord gives strength to his people;
    the Lord blesses his people with peace.

2020 won if you saw and heard the Captain of our Armies speaking and saw Him in the midst. Did you hear Him speak or did you only see cedars break? Did you hear Him speak or did you only see oak trees twist? Did you hear Him speak or did you only only see raging fires? Did you hear Him speak or did you only see riots? Did you hear Him speak or did you see only a lock-down that shook our forests bare and left us without toilet paper?

Take a look at John 12.

²⁷ “Now my soul is troubled, and what shall I say? ‘Father, save me from this hour’? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. ²⁸ Father, glorify your name!” Then a voice came from heaven, “I have glorified it, and will glorify it again.” ²⁹ The crowd that was there and heard it said it had thundered; others said an angel had spoken to him.

The Voice of God thundered – but some heard only thunder. A natural phenomena that occurs every election cycle.

Some saw angels; messengers that interpreted all the signs for us.

Some saw and heard the Voice and the Direction of the Lord as He used what was meant for our destruction, to get our attention and glorify and magnify who He is.

I saw the Lord. I saw His leading. I saw every movement as being directed by God, though I did not understand details while it was happening. But since I saw Him, I remained at peace because I trust Him, I am confident in His love for me and I know my role.

The Vision

I had a vision in a prayer meeting – sometime in the beginning of 2017.

The vision is this: the Holy Spirit was hovering over me and I was groaning. There was a room of about seven people and we were praying in the spirit. The first thing I see emerge before my eyes as if it is coming out of my eyes, is an alligator. And this alligator is large at first in my vision, as if it is coming out of my eyes. And I only see the ground in front of the alligator and I only see the snout of the alligator.
As I am seeing this vision, I am declaring what I see to the others in the room. I had not heard of the phrase “drain the swamp“ at that time. So I see this alligator and now emerging into the vision in front of the alligator is Trump. And I see Trump moving all the way to the left and the alligator moves his head towards Trump but then very quickly Trump moved all the way to the right and the alligator had to pause and change the direction of his head all the way to the right and this is a repeated motion, zigzagging all the way to the left and all the way to the right.When I was in Florida one thing that I learned was that alligators do not have peripheral vision. They only see what’s in front of them. They have to move their head to see what is on the left or right. So while I’m having this vision I asked the Lord, “why is trump running away from the alligator? What is he afraid of?“ And then, emerging into the vision, was the Lord in front of Trump. And He also was zigzagging all the way to the left and then all the way to the right. And the Lord said to me “He is not running from The alligator. He is leading the alligator. And I am leading him.”

End of vision.

Below is what unfolded after and my understanding of it. I shuddered and became weak. And then I started telling the others in the group that the Lord is leading Donald Trump in such a way to distract the top of the food chain, which I always called the alligators, the top of the food chain. And of course since then I started hearing the phrase “drain the swamp“ and then I understood that the media was the alligators.

In hindsight, I saw how Trump would call the media all the way over to the left and have them look at him and report and be focused all on him, while he had his people all the way on the opposite side doing their work. And then he would run to the right and he would “Dog whistle” for the media to look all the way to the right while his people moved all the way to the left.The thing is, while the media was focused on Trump as he whistled for them to one side, he always had greater respect for the ones who were not focused on him solely. They showed themselves to the people and to himself they were not swamp creatures. DJT is a master at chess. There are moves and countermoves. He also has followed Sun Tzu- who wrote the book The Art of War. One quote from Sun Tzu “Never interfere with your enemy while he is in the process of destroying himself”. What you all see now is DJT moving left and right, zigzagging here and there while the media swamp creatures watch and report and try to interpret his every move but if you only look through the vision of the gator, yes you will see DJT doing things like rant on Twitter or play golf or whatever it is being reported on, but what you will not see is what is really going on because DJT has removed leaks. You won’t know completely because if you did, so does our enemy. Another Sun Tzu quote “Keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer”. Many in the media report that his team is always in turmoil and there is so much turnover. However, if you discern it correctly you will see that he brings people he knows could leak. He tells them a secret and sees how fast the fake news media reports it. He also changes staff often but don’t think there is necessarily a problem when he does it. It is by design. I may not know details, but guaranteed nobody else knows either. This is a good thing. It means our enemies, both foreign and domestic, can only rely on what is leaked out to the press. Often times disinformation is leaked out to see who runs with it. There are wars and rumors of wars, and signs in the sky and on the earth but Jesus’ first warning to the disciples in Matthew 24, regarding the end of THE AGE (not the world), is “see to it that you are not deceived.” The Jewish scholars always emphasized their most important warnings first. “See to it that you are not deceived” was the first warning. When you begin to see and hear many things, don’t shift your eyes like the gator does. Keep your eyes focused. Know that while DJT is leading all this, it is THE ART OF SPIRITUAL WARFARE (which none of us are masters at yet) and Christ is leading him.

Jesus came to destroy the works of Satan (1 John 3:8)

Trump came to drain the swamp.

Do you see the Lord leading yet?

When it is said “Look for Jesus” what does that mean to you? What are you looking for? Who are you looking for?

If you were a disciple in the days of Christ, and you watched him be put to death on the Cross – even though He said “nobody takes my life, but I lay it down,” would you believe that you were deceived when you watched Him take His last breath? He didn’t secure His position as King as He said, right? Would you walk away disappointed, scared, grieved, feeling deceived and angry even, that you had followed a man for 3 plus years, watched him do exploits, learned the greatest wisdom ever and heard the deepest teaching from the Son of God and Son of Man Himself – something that only rich and privileged men were allowed to do in those days – would you then have called yourself a fool for following him?

That was basically what the disciples did when Jesus “gave up the ghost”. They went back to their fishing boats. They didn’t understand The Plan.

The Jews did not recognize Jesus when He came to them. They were looking for a King to take the place of King Herod. But Jesus came as a poor servant without a home. He sure didn’t look like a King.

The Church today may not recognize Him when He returns. You need to ask the Lord “How will I know You when You come?” You need to wrestle with that question. Please read that again.

YOU.NEED.TO.WRESTLE.WITH.THAT.QUESTION.

Jesus’ death, according to Colossians 2:13-15 says “When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the charge of our legal indebtedness, which stood against us and condemned us; he has taken it away, nailing it to the cross. And having disarmed the powers and authorities, he made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them by the cross.

He disarmed the powers and authorities! But if you just saw a man die on the Cross and didn’t understand The Plan, you would have, like the disciples walked away with head bowed low or maybe now in fear that your government knows who you are and this is the end of the line for you.

What did President Trump do? He is going the way of the Constitution; the Way for the United States. In this atmosphere, it is a costly but necessary way. See the signs that point to some of his accomplishments but understand Who was leading him through it. If you just see the accomplishments, but did not see God leading Him, you will have no ability to hang in there with the man who is your President as you watch everything hurled against him. If you just saw a man who could not control his temper on Twitter, but did not see he was sending a message to the Cabal in a manner they are not accustomed, and at the same time to Patriots to encourage them with another clue to the plan, maybe you need to revisit when Jesus overturned tables in anger in the temple. Maybe you need to review his one-word responses to Pilate or the way He spoke in coded parables which were messages to his followers and ask yourselves “Why?”

The President wants to give government back to the people by way of the Constitution.

And Jesus came to give authority to the Church by way of the Cross.

So, what exactly WAS and IS the plan laid out for us since before the foundations of the world?

Look at John 17.

Eternal Life
Vs 1 Jesus spoke these things; and raising His eyes to heaven, He said, “Father, the hour has come; glorify Your Son, so that the Son may glorify You, ² just as You gave Him authority over all mankind, so that to all whom You have given Him, He may give eternal life.

Eternal Life is Knowing God the Father, through God the Son
³ And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent.

Christ’s Accomplishments
⁴ I glorified You on the earth by accomplishing the work which You have given Me to do. ⁵ And now You, Father, glorify Me together with Yourself, with the glory which I had with You before the world existed.

Christ Reveals the Father
⁶ “I have revealed Your name to the men whom You gave Me out of the world; they were Yours and You gave them to Me, and they have followed Your word.

All Good Gifts Come from the Father and Given to us through Christ
⁷ Now they have come to know that everything which You have given Me is from You; ⁸ for the words which You gave Me I have given to them; and they received them and truly understood that I came forth from You, and they believed that You sent Me. ⁹ I ask on their behalf; I do not ask on behalf of the world, but on the behalf of those whom You have given Me, because they are Yours; ¹⁰ and all things that are Mine are Yours, and Yours are Mine; and I have been glorified in them. ¹¹ I am no longer going to be in the world; and yet they themselves are in the world, and I am coming to You. Holy Father, keep them in Your name, the name which You have given Me, so that they may be one just as We are. ¹² While I was with them, I was keeping them in Your name, which You have given Me; and I guarded them, and not one of them perished except the son of destruction, so that the Scripture would be fulfilled.

His Disciples Go Through Trials and Tribulations

¹³ But now I am coming to You; and these things I speak in the world so that they may have My joy made full in themselves. ¹⁴ I have given them Your word; and the world has hated them because they are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. ¹⁵ I am not asking You to take them out of the world, but to keep them away from the evil one. ¹⁶ They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. ¹⁷ Sanctify them in the truth; Your word is truth. ¹⁸ Just as You sent Me into the world, I also sent them into the world. ¹⁹ And for their sakes I sanctify Myself, so that they themselves also may be sanctified in truth.

Intimacy Desired – not social distancing or isolation
²⁰ “I am not asking on behalf of these alone, but also for those who believe in Me through their word, ²¹ that they may all be one; just as You, Father, are in Me and I in You, that they also may be in Us, so that the world may believe that You sent Me.

Disciples’ Future Glory (Current) – Perfected in Unity and in Love
²² The glory which You have given Me I also have given to them, so that they may be one, just as We are one; ²³ I in them and You in Me, that they may be perfected in unity, so that the world may know that You sent Me, and You loved them, just as You loved Me. ²⁴ Father, I desire that they also, whom You have given Me, be with Me where I am, so that they may see My glory which You have given Me, for You loved Me before the foundation of the world.

A Disciple’s Commission – To Reveal the Father’s Love, a love that transforms
²⁵ “Righteous Father, although the world has not known You, yet I have known You; and these have known that You sent Me; ²⁶ and I have made Your name known to them, and will make it known, so that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.”

Matthew 25
The Separation of the Sheep and the Goats
³¹ “But when the Son of Man comes in His glory, and all the angels with Him, then He will sit on His glorious throne. ³² And all the nations will be gathered before Him; and He will separate them from one another, just as the shepherd separates the sheep from the goats; ³³ and He will put the sheep on His right, but the goats on the left.

What about the dragon of Revelation 12?
Though the dragon is the serpent of old, Lucifer, who was hurled to the earth, it manifested as the antichrist inhabiting people and nations.

The National Symbol of C H I N A is the dragon. The dragon also represents the antichrist, Luciferian system that has been around since the beginning of time but the bible is so relevant to every age and culture it is important not only to see it as history, but as prophecy.

All goat nations who align themselves with C H I N A are considered as the dragon. What is the symbol of Baphomet? Is it not a goat? The revered Luciferian statue? What is Luciferase?

What did the dragon do? The dragon spewed water out of its mouth. What kind of water spews out of its mouth? Toxic water. Spewing suggests a toxic flood. And what kind of toxic flood comes out of a mouth? Lies, accusations, manipulation, propaganda, etc. And who gets taken away in the flood? As in the days of Noah? Is it not those who were carrying on with life, following after their own flesh, fears, lusts and believing what they see and hear, and doing what is right in their own eyes rather than believing the conspiracy theorist Noah when he was building a boat to protect them from the coming flood? (Matthew 25)

And who is the Woman who gives birth? If the dragon represents the literal nation of C H I N A and the antichrist system and all goat nations with it, then the Woman represents the literal nation Israel that gave birth to Christ and all nations who acknowledge Christ as the Son of God, and Son of Man, Lord of all (sheep nations – “My sheep hear my voice”).

And the Woman was given two wings of a Great Eagle (The United States has sided with Israel so we are considered one with them and our national symbol is The Eagle). The child, also the ones God has perfected and raised as mature sons are rising up but as you can see below, the Great Eagle will be protected for about 3 1/2 years (1260 days or times, time and half a time – about 42 months – or, nearly a full Presidential term. see Daniel 7).

Revelation 12:13-17 When the dragon saw that he had been hurled to the earth, he pursued the woman who had given birth to the male child.
The woman was given the two wings of a great eagle, so that she might fly to the place prepared for her in the wilderness, where she would be taken care of for a time, times and half a time, out of the serpent’s reach.

Then from his mouth the serpent spewed water like a river, to overtake the woman and sweep her away with the torrent (lies, manipulations, accusations spewed out like a flood, ready to sweep away our nation).

But the earth helped the woman by opening its mouth and swallowing the river that the dragon had spewed out of his mouth. Then the dragon was enraged at the woman and went off to wage war against the rest of her offspring—those who keep God’s commands and hold fast their testimony about Jesus.

So here is what I see here –

The United States, together with Israel, and other sheep nations, has not yet won the war against C H I N A and the goat nations, so we are about to enter into a new phase of “The Plan”.

We have not yet seen the full flood of the dragon. There are many prophets who have seen a two-term presidency for Trump so if I believe the prophets and line it up with scripture, my insights, for whatever they are worth to you, the reader, is that the church of God has 42 months to repent, get right, get eyes off the world, come out of the world, put them back on the Lord, and call upon Him to bring the greatest revival and harvest the world has ever known.

I’m not giving you times and dates for the return of the Lord, but I do know the season. Persecution is coming. So is the season where all angels will be looking upon the Bride in Her finest hour. It is not the time to fear. This is the time to choose to be known by the Lord and step into the time you were born for.

2020 is now hindsight. When you took another look back, did you just hear the thunder? Or did you choose to believe your chosen messenger without digging in and looking for yourself into the matter?

Or did you hear the Voice of God say “I have glorified My Name and will glorify it again.”

Your response is critical as you step into the next phase of God’s plan.

Exiting our public library one day in 2006, with so much on my mind, I almost hadn’t noticed Isaiah walking right past me, and I might not have if he hadn’t shouted to me “Don’t you know today is a day the Lord has made? Why do you look so down?”

Of course that made me smile and Isaiah and I began to talk. He didn’t have to talk much before the smell of alcohol reached my nose, yet he was coherent. I found out he went to Ebenezer Baptist Church, and that he swept the floors there on ocassion.

He then asked me for money, which I did not give him. Side note. I do have somewhat of an experience with alcoholism. Alcoholism was in my own family, and I drank for many years.

I knew not to give Isaiah money because it would be like filling a bag with holes. “Silver and gold have I none but such as I have I give to thee” I told him. Then I asked if I could pray for him. He said “alright” so I took Isaiah’s hand and began to prophesy into his life, and calling forth the new wine that the Lord wants to offer, and desires for him. That his life be filled with the joy of the Lord and he walk free from his little fermented friends. That he become the beautiful creation the Lord intended for him.

“You’re still not going to give me money, are you?” I told him I was not, but that our meeting on this day meant that I was going to see him again soon. The Lord sent him across my path ‘for such a time as this’.

I let Isaiah know that I had to leave to pick up my husband, I was meeting him for lunch. He asked me if I had children and I told him I had two but they were older.

I said goodbye and got into my car to pick up Richard at his workplace, only a block up the road. I arrived in front of Richard’s place and there was Richard waiting, but there was no parking space for me. I told him briefly I was late because I met a man named Isaiah, and then told him the story of our encounter. I shared that he asked for money but I was not to give him any. I had to drive around the block to find a space and when I did, I walked back to meet Richard.

He said “Guess who I met?” “I don’t know, who?” “Isaiah.” “How did you know it was Isaiah?” “Because he approached me and asked me for money and his breath smelled like alcohol so I took a shot at it and asked him ‘Is your name Isaiah?’ and I think it sobered him up a bit.” Then Richard said he asked him “Didn’t my wife just tell you we were not going to give you any money?” A dawning of recognition hit Isaiah and he asked Richard “your wife got two kids?” and Richard nodded. Isaiah just walked away and said “dang”.

I knew that was confirmation that Isaiah and I would run into each other a few more times. I’ve ministered briefly to Isaiah about SIX times since. (Remember that) He would always smell like alcohol, but each time he was coherent and very friendly. He could hold a conversation.

On Monday night, June 30, he was troubled. (Remember the date) It was raining heavily and there he was, talking to Richard, as Richard was waiting for me to pick him up. I called out to Isaiah “Hey my friend, what are you doing out in the rain?” And he came up to the car window, pulling at his jacket. “Get me out of here! Get me out of here” I asked him “Where is here, Isaiah?” “Alcohol. Get me out of here. Get me out of here”

Richard got into the passenger side and told Isaiah we needed to go. Isaiah stood there and then said alright, and started to walk away. I told Richard I couldn’t leave him.

“We have to stay with him. We have to pray with him. We can’t leave him.” Richard told me he prayed with Isaiah already. I said, “I can’t leave Isaiah. We need to minister to him. Are you with me on this?” He said yes.

I parked the car and jumped out and we pulled Isaiah closer to a store front that had a place of shelter from the rain. Isaiah was carrying two bottles of Gatorade and a bottle of gin in his bag.

Isaiah said “I’ll be right back. I have to use the **ithouse.” Richard and I let him go do what he needed to do, but we knew he was sneaking away. We followed him to see he was dipping into his bag. We told him we were here to help him but he had to get rid of the alcohol. “I can’t. It’s too hard” he would say. Of course it’s hard. “We are not here to tell you to throw this away and do something that you will not be empowered to do by the Lord. We’re here to tell you that WE are not going to help you tonight unless you take this first step. Do you want to be free tonight Isaiah?” He said he did. “Then throw the bottles away” “But it’s too hard” And this dialogue went back and forth a few times when I felt I needed to get away to grab him a bite to eat. I went around the block to the Subway and called a few friends. I contacted Deborah Letourneau, the Director of the Healing Rooms in Hurricane and Charleston, and she advised me that Abner Suarez was preaching at Valley Christian Assembly in about an hour from the time I called her. After getting Isaiah a Subway sandwich, I went back to find both of them on the park bench.

The rain had stopped now and Isaiah’s head was on Richard’s chest. “I love you man. I love you.” Isaiah kept saying to Richard. But Isaiah started to turn nasty on me. “Who are you?” Then he turned to Richard. “Is this your wife?” His face contorted and he started speaking crudely to me. “WHAT EH VERRRRR” he repeated every time I tried to open my mouth. He would not let me speak, and then the attacks were intense. He began to tell me just what he would like to do to me as he stared at my body parts. I did not flinch. I could see Richard was very uncomfortable but he knew I was having internal dialogue with God.

I put my head down. “Lord what do I do here? What stone do I pull out of my bag today?”

Then Jesus whispered to my heart “Ask him where the ones who love him are”

Through all his demons talking, I kept calling “Isaiah. Isaiah. Isaiah” But his demons continued to talk junk. I stared right into Isaiah’s eyes and spoke to THE DEMONS. “I don’t want to talk to you. I want to talk to Isaiah and I am not budging from here til I talk to Isaiah”

Isaiah looked at Richard. “She’s tough. Ooooh she’s tough”

“Isaiah, where are the ones who love you?” Isaiah got quiet. Richard told me that Isaiah had just told him he had a brother named Jeremiah, who died of cancer and that was when he turned to alcohol. It was his twin brother. Twin brothers – Isaiah and Jeremiah. This young man had a praying mama. I looked at Isaiah, and started to talk to him like he was a little boy.

“Isaiah, where is your momma?” Isaiah started to cry. “She’s dead” I put my lips out and made a pouty face.

“Where is your daddy?”
“He’s dead too”
“Where are the others who love you Isaiah?”
“They’re all gone”
“Jesus loves you Isaiah”

“Awwwwwww dont start talking junk to me.”
“Isaiah, you are called by God you know. He has a plan for you”

“Awwwww dont, please don’t start with that”
And as Isaiah was crying, he was resting his head on Richard’s chest. He looked at Richard. “I love you man, I love you. But she, she BROKE me. She BROKE me.”

And Isaiah continued to weep.

“Isaiah?” I asked him “Do you want Jesus to set you free tonight?” He said “I do. I love Jesus. I do.”

“Then take your bottles and throw them away”

Richard told me that while I was at Subway, Isaiah let him throw away the bottle of gin. I said to him “What’s in your Gatorade Isaiah?” He said “Gatorade, that’s all” I told him to throw the bottle away, we’d buy him some new Gatorade. I told him he’d have to throw those bottles away if he wanted our help.

“Its’ hard”

“I know. But it’s getting late and I have things to do. I can’t be playing with you. If you are not ready, then we have to go. Do you want to get set free tonight?”

“I do.” “Then you have to throw those bottles away. Isaiah handed the gatorade to Richard and Richard headed toward the trash.

“Richard,” I said. “Isaiah needs to toss those bottle, not you”

Richard handed the bottle back to Isaiah.

“You have to do this yourself Isaiah”
Isaiah got up and headed towards the trash.
A “friend” of his came by and asked for the bottle. I might have said no, but I didnt care. It wasnt his friend’s time tonight. Isaiah gave his friend the bottle and his friend walked away drinking it.

Richard and I put Isaiah in the car and drove to VCA. He said to Richard “She was right. I had alcohol in those bottles. This is so hard.” Then he looked at me and said “You don’t understand. I smoked crack.”

I said “No, YOU don’t understand. So did I”

The only difference between Isaiah and me, was that I had an intervention of the Lord. Isaiah needed one too. We pulled into the parking lot and took Isaiah in. He was still telling Richard he loved him. Familiar faces were there. Kim Hager, to my surprise, had been asked to worship. Kay Lowther was there – he ministers healing throughout Charleston and in the Healing Rooms at Charleston. Teri McGee and her daughter, Meghan were there. They are ministers at our food pantry. Isaiah sat in the same pew as Richard, and I sat behind them. He was loud but I whispered into his ear that this was not the time to talk. He needed to listen to the music. I was like his mama with a plastic spoon ready to whoop him if he got loud.

Richard’s ministry to Isaiah was also just what Dr. Jesus ordered. I believe that Isaiah did not know the love of a father. He looked like a little boy just buried on his daddy’s chest. Richard carried the love of his Father all over him. Isaiah then stretched out onto the pew and fell asleep. At the end of service, I woke him up and asked him if he would like to go up to the alter. There was someone who would like to pray for him. He said yes, and as he staggered up to the front, Richard and I needed to hold him back because he was anxious to get up. Once there, Abner laid hands on him and Isaiah fell. Tears streamed down his face and several others then laid hands upon him. Ministering to him the love and forgiveness of the Lord. When Isaiah came to his feet, he called up to Abner “I love you in the name of Jesus” Then he looked at Richard “I love you” and then he looked at me “I love you. You are tough.” “She’s tough” he said to Richard.

Shortly before he left, I was reminded of the day I met him, at the library when when he called out to me “Don’t you know this is a day the Lord has made?” I said to him “Isaiah, your brother was named Jeremiah. This means to me that your mother was a praying woman and she knew your calling. God has heard your mother’s prayers. You are going to go out into these streets and set others free. You’ve been called to the kingdom ‘for such a time as this”. He nodded. Richard and Isaiah then left to get a motel room so that he could get a restful sleep, and I stayed behind.

Tuesday morning at 7:45, Richard knocked on Isaiah’s motel room door. Isaiah answered the door and greeted him with a hug. There were two beer bottles on the night table. Isaiah said he met two men there, shortly after he was dropped off at the motel, who had some beer with them. I was disappointed but I KNEW he was touched by God.
We had not seen Isaiah for a long while since that night.
A year later, we were driving by that same spot where we had our time with him on the bench. I heard a man call out. “Hey! Hey!” and I looked over and it was Isaiah. He held up a large fast food cup. “It’s tea! No alcohol!”
We stopped the car to go see him and he said he was clean and sober from alcohol and was waiting for the bus to take him to his recovery group.

“I’m 6 months clean and I am going to get my pin tonight! Will you drive me there?”

That was the greatest news. I was so happy.

I said “Six months?” Then I started calculating when that was. I realized that it was July 1. So six months prior was February 1.

Then, it hit me again. We originally saw Isaiah on June 30 of the previous year and his freedom from alcohol began SIX MONTHS AND ONE DAY from the day we dragged him to church and he was touched by God.

Isaiah 61

“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me,
Because the Lord has anointed Me
To preach good tidings to the poor;
He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,
And the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord,
And the day of vengeance of our God;
To comfort all who mourn,
³ To console those who mourn in Zion,
To give them beauty for ashes,
The oil of joy for mourning,
The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;
That they may be called trees of righteousness,
The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.”

A year later we were driving through the city. We saw Isaiah again. He was standing outside a church. We stopped to see him and he said “I want you to see something.”

He took us to the gardens around the church. “I’ve always wanted to be a gardener and the pastor of this church allows me to be the gardener. As long as I remain clean and sober, I can keep it up.

His gardens were beautiful. We were in awe of what God had done in Isaiah’s life and that he found support and accountability.

A friend of his walked up to him and said “Are you going to introduce me to your friends, Isaiah?”

She was a church member and confirmed to us that he was truly delivered. Clean and sober.

His garden was beautifully tended to with love and care. The soil was worked and nourished. Like Isaiah.

Isaiah 61:11 For as the earth brings forth its bud,
As the garden causes the things that are sown in it to spring forth,
So the Lord God will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations.

In this moment  I have Peace  In this moment I have Joy  In this moment  I Release  The presence of God  In this moment  I choose Grace  In this moment  I choose Love  In this moment  In this place  Is the presence of God  And these moments  Add to minutes And these minutes  Add to years  And these years  Become infinite When each moment  Is with God  In this moment He’s your Answer  In this moment  He is Truth  In this moment  You’re His dancer  Following the feet of God

Today is the 3rd anniversary of mom’s death. Hard to believe it has gone by so quickly. When I am not thinking logically, I find myself saying “where is mom?” Especially when I’m feeling like I need approval which is weird because approval was not something mom gave me often. Everyone in the world, yes. But not me. She wanted so much more from me and often made that known.

So, why? Because she was mom. I am a very independent person. I do not live my life to please people. I LIKE people to be pleased but I don’t live my life to please people and that was always an issue with mom. She often thought of other’s who did and wanted to know why I didn’t? She would think of all her friends’ daughters or women at church who had good paying professional careers, and say “why can’t you be like so and so?”

It absolutely unnerved me and often caused us to not speak to each other. When I graduated from college with some credentials in the natural health field, and when I became an author, I couldn’t wait to tell her. But the natural health field is not medical. I was not a nurse like my brother Michael, and I was not making money as an author. Anyone can be an author, right?

But, at the end of the day, it was because she thought I was SO smart, that she felt my choices in life didn’t match how smart I was. I could have been something. And she only wanted the best for me.

What I miss is not so much approval, but I sometimes miss that impetus in her voice that pushed me to be better, even though I didn’t choose relationships or careers she thought I was capable of being in. Only she was able to trigger that drive for better but while she was alive, I could not see that. I saw it as I was her biggest disappointment.

I just miss HER.

That trigger which drove me to push for better was more a need to please mom. But even in that, I ultimately could not.

I learned a most valuable lesson. Perspective is often after the fact. I WANTED to please mom. Though I am independent, I really wanted to please her.

It was because of our friction (my need to please her and never could – her need for me to fill a role I also never could) that she ultimately found peace through Christ. And I miss her, but I know where she is and I know I will see her again.

I overheard a store employee say “I don’t get paid enough to take this crap!”
I wanted to ask “How much do you need to get paid to take crap?”
Many blogs are written and memes made about attitude. I was looking at a few this morning.

Then I read this this morning:

Psalm 18:4 The pangs of death surrounded me,
And the floods of ungodliness made me afraid.
⁵ The sorrows of Sheol surrounded me;
The snares of death confronted me.
⁶ In my distress I called upon the Lord,
And cried out to my God;
He heard my voice from His temple,
And my cry came before Him, even to His ears.

⁷ Then the earth shook and trembled;
The foundations of the hills also quaked and were shaken,
Because He was angry.
⁸ Smoke went up from His nostrils,
And devouring fire from His mouth;
Coals were kindled by it.
⁹ He bowed the heavens also, and came down
With darkness under His feet.
¹⁰ And He rode upon a cherub, and flew;
He flew upon the wings of the wind.
¹¹ He made darkness His secret place;
His canopy around Him was dark waters
And thick clouds of the skies.
¹² From the brightness before Him,
His thick clouds passed with hailstones and coals of fire.

¹³ The Lord thundered from heaven,
And the Most High uttered His voice,
Hailstones and coals of fire.
¹⁴ He sent out His arrows and scattered the foe,
Lightnings in abundance, and He vanquished them.
¹⁵ Then the channels of the sea were seen,
The foundations of the world were uncovered
At Your rebuke, O Lord,
At the blast of the breath of Your nostrils.

Attitude without perspective is just a shallow front. Attitude is outward while perspective is inward. Perspective is what is seen that helps shape the attitude.
David saw beyond the earthquakes, the pangs of death, the debauchery and deception around him. He saw through the fog and the fire and beyond the lightning. He heard a Voice in the thunder and roaring waters.

He saw the Almighty God.

Today it is cold and rainy with patches of fog. I expect to see God.

While strolling through the Psalms this morning, I was stopped here. I read through in one version then in another, not really sure what I am supposed to see.

No, I don’t feel as close to God these days – at least when compared with earlier days.
No, I don’t feel as filled with delight and wonder as I did over a decade ago.

I could think of all kinds of reasons why I don’t, but none seem to be “it.”

Except one. One thing drags me down farther than anything else. My lame feet. I literally have lame feet. Filled with arthritis and pain, nerve shocks that lift me off the ground when I walk and toward the end of the day cause my legs to be so heavy I cannot lift them.

Okay two things – but I can’t write this publicly. God knows the pain of loneliness that can only be remedied with a companion to talk to. I don’t mean friend or counselor. I mean companion. What happened to my companion?

Well maybe there is another. CompanionS. And I cannot be public with that either. God knows.

Then I think “If only my feet and legs would work, none of this would matter. I have resources and skills and talents. My own work would praise me like the Proverbs 31 woman’s works praised her!”

But my feet and legs don’t work and I am filled with struggle day in and day out.

“ReMember Me” I hear Him say
“ReMember Me in the cool of the day”
“ReMember Me with each step you take”
“ReMember Me for the Kingdom’s sake”

“I will ReMember You”

This is deeper than just thinking of Him.

Those words “ReMember Me” have to do with healing of my own body, and healing of His.

Body parts cannot act independently of themselves without getting cut off at the knees.

I cried out to God with my voice—
To God with my voice;
And He gave ear to me.
² In the day of my trouble I sought the Lord;
My hand was stretched out in the night without ceasing;
My soul refused to be comforted.
³ I remembered God, and was troubled;
I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed. Selah

⁴ You hold my eyelids open;
I am so troubled that I cannot speak.
⁵ I have considered the days of old,
The years of ancient times.
⁶ I call to remembrance my song in the night;
I meditate within my heart,
And my spirit makes diligent search.

⁷ Will the Lord cast off forever?
And will He be favorable no more?
⁸ Has His mercy ceased forever?
Has His promise failed forevermore?
⁹ Has God forgotten to be gracious?
Has He in anger shut up His tender mercies? Selah

¹⁰ And I said, “This is my anguish;
But I will remember the years of the right hand of the Most High.”
¹¹ I will remember the works of the Lord;
Surely I will remember Your wonders of old.
¹² I will also meditate on all Your work,
And talk of Your deeds.
¹³ Your way, O God, is in the sanctuary;
Who is so great a God as our God?
¹⁴ You are the God who does wonders;
You have declared Your strength among the peoples.
¹⁵ You have with Your arm redeemed Your people,
The sons of Jacob and Joseph. Selah

¹⁶ The waters saw You, O God;
The waters saw You, they were afraid;
The depths also trembled.
¹⁷ The clouds poured out water;
The skies sent out a sound;
Your arrows also flashed about.
¹⁸ The voice of Your thunder was in the whirlwind;
The lightnings lit up the world;
The earth trembled and shook.
¹⁹ Your way was in the sea,
Your path in the great waters,
And Your footsteps were not known.
²⁰ You led Your people like a flock
By the hand of Moses and Aaron.

Remember Annanias and Saphira? They lied, they died. Pretty harsh to many people’s standards, right?
Yes it is but God is just.

God was establishing a church in the time of A & S, and He was establishing a righteous church – of course I mean a people, not a building. How far from holy have we fallen?

Well He has not changed and is cleaning up His church. He is coming for a pure and spotless Bride, without stain or wrinkle. We are not there, but we will be by the time He is finished uprooting tares and separating the sheep and goats.

Here is a time to sharpen your sword, clean up your act, repent of your sins and fall to your knees.

God the Father, desires a pure and spotless Bride for His Son. It is all about Jesus, Yeshua. It is all about A King. Everything created is in Him, for Him, by Him, through Him and about Him.

Hear my prayer Oh Lord for our President, it is a just prayer, it is a righteous plea. Hear the cry from my fingertips which you have acknowledged so many times before.
Hear my prayer for our President which does not come from trigger fingers without consideration. Let his vindication come straight from You, may Your eyes see what is right.

You have probed his heart and you have examined him and tested him. You have forgiven his transgressions and have strengthened him.

You have found that he has planned no evil and has not transgressed against you and your plans.

Though he is accused of bribery, it is his enemies who try to bribe him. He has kept himself from the ways of the violent. His steps have held onto the path you have laid out for him and he has not stumbled.

I call on You my God for you will answer me; turn your ear to me and hear my prayer for our President and our nation. Show me the wonders of your great love, You save by your right hand those who take refuge in you from their foes.

Keep us as the apple of your eye; hide us neath the shadow of your wings from the wicked who seek to destroy us, from mortal enemies who surround us and are among us.

They have closed their callous hearts and their mouths speak with arrogance. They have tracked our President down, have put a bounty on his head, and his enemies are numerous who surround him. With eyes alert they seek t throw him to the ground.

They are like a lion hungry for prey, a crouching lion in fierce cover.

Rise up Lord, confront them. Bring them down with your sword and rescue him from the wicked. By your hand save us from evil people who seek to destroy us for their gain.

May what you have stored up for them fill them and may they be gorged on it; all those who follow them.

As for me, I will be vindicated when I see your face and when I awake I will see your likeness.

Who is like You Lord?
Ruler of all nations,
Captain of our armies,
Throughout all generations
Who is like You Lord?
You give the command
And it is so!
Your silence demands our stillness
Your Word demands we go
You cause the sun to rise and set
On just and unjust alike
You send the storm
You calm the sea
No, there is none like
You Lord
Your voice commands cedars
To split in half
At its sound a deer gives birth
To its calf
And commands the desert to bloom
Yet You sit and laugh
At the plans of the all the nations
You are God of all Creation
And You do as You please
We fall to our knees
And say You alone
Are Lord.

Touching something is part of the process of free will.  Take away the touching and you take away the free will.  God never said “you shall not go through the process of deciding whether to obey My command or not.”

The trouble is not the process of decision.  The trouble comes when you actually hear the Word of God and choose to ignore or disobey it.

Genesis 3:1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any beast of the field which the Lord God had made. And he said to the woman, “Indeed, has God said, ‘You shall not eat from any tree of the garden’?”

vs 2 The woman said to the serpent, “From the fruit of the trees of the garden we may eat;

vs 3 but from the fruit of the tree which is in the middle of the garden, God has said, ‘You shall not eat from it or touch it, or you will die.’”